ive gotten better. my glass is half full, but there's a leak in the cup. im in israel now, will be for a year. ive got great friends that im already very close with. ive make dome israeli friends, and met a few cute girls. i live with a host family. ive got another journal to update all the crazy shit i do while im here, check it out-- ( Read more... )

i cant fuckin wait to move far far far away from all of my fucking family. i know they love me, but it seems in the worst of times they remind me how much i loved living on the other side of the world.

im still having a hard time with everything. so much stuff i wanna do. i want to do this college thing and have it work out. but in the back of my head im scared. this is going to ba a bitch of a year, but its all gonna be worth it. everything works out in the end. you'll see. in the end its all nice ( Read more... )

i feel wierd. i miss her. i dont like the idea of not seeing her for so long. its gonna be a hard year. its gonna make everything so much better next year though...like, the sweet isnt as sweet without the bitter...i dunno. i feel wierd. its like this pain inside me....not pain but just like, a rush and whirlwind of emotions. i hate it. im ( Read more... )

god. i need someone. i need to find faith. i need something. i'm tired of this place. i'm tired of living in salem. i'm tired of living with my parents. i got a job offer today. i'd be moving to england for a year, and making a lot of money. my parents told me its my life and my decision...but it'd really fuck over my relationship with my ( Read more... )

i was just thinkin about this a few nights ago ( Read more... )

so its official, not going on year course ( Read more... )

tterrab eman: 1@#opi!j$_)wuirse_a(uif_(q@#ui$!_(#i!@_#i@1 ( Read more... )

so im sick. the nurses here dont know shit. i have to work when im sick, even though i have a doctor's note out of it, so today i went in the mornign and skipped the afternoon shift....id rather rest during work days so i can be healthy during school days ( Read more... )

so purim went good. too much shit to list, here's the shortened down version though ( Read more... )