So God knows that I need to be around women. Don't ask, just realize that it must be this way. But there is so much temptation. I have feelings for many girls for all different reasons. I love it and hate it. Bah ( Read more... )

The 41 hour bus ride has brought me from the reality of Mexico to a life I remember. I don't want to be overwhelming about my experiences, but don't be suprised if I tell you about my faith.

I am gross, unshaven, but not tired.

I don't want to attempt to read the posts I missed, yet.

A real update will come tommorow.

Night.

I hate myself. For my thoughts and also for my failure ( Read more... )

I got up at 9:30, planning on going to the covenant church. Didn't happen, I decided I had more stuff going on. I started feeling really sick because I had had no sugar all week and I had a donut and a half. I took a walk before the Lutheran Church ( Read more... )

So I had my grad party. It was a good time. Kinda hectic. Many people came. A bunch of alto's came which I loved. They're the greatest girls. A lot of friends. A lot of people who I didn't know. Many cards unopened ( Read more... )

I think I need a commitment.

Went to Bens party tonight. No one there was for me. I went to Alex's house to watch Brock and others play some poker. They got done, Casey wanted to go to Bens. Maybe there was some people there I wanted to see now. Nope. Casey and I went away to practice for the variety show. Bunch of people were enjoying it... others were being jerks. ( Read more... )

I feel that I'm not being loved. Just at Britta's party I felt like I needed more attention. More friends. Laurie was very cute by the fire. We talked and joked but I wanted more than just a friend I guess. She got up and talked with some other people. There was no one around I really wanted to talk to. I could of gotten my guitar and gotten ( Read more... )

So Friday right. We spent all day doing our band thing. We practiced which we were all getting sick of... Especially wild thing. We spent a lot of time getting CD's ready. We had no idea if the printing thing was going to work, and it didn't. Cutting and folding sucked-a-lot. It was a lot day/week. We finally played :). We noticed our screw ( Read more... )

Oh sad I was. I walked out of school realizing that my entire lifed has changed. All the work I've done to make name for myself in this school, all the friends that aren't good friends, all the the friends that really are friends, the teachers I've become friends with, doesn't matter anymore. They were all good people to say hi to, but where I'm ( Read more... )