I hate people that say that they want one thing and then when you give them what they want they don't want it because they are to chicken. I hate having to hide what I feel because people don't like it. I hate my sectets. I hate not knowing what will happen. I hate him sometimes because he will not let go of someone that will never love him. I hate ( Read more... )

Today all I want is for the people that hurt me to stop hurting me. All I want is to make the pain stop. All I want is for them to love me even thou I know that it will never happen. I want nothing more then to feel like I am loved. I need to let them go. I need to stop loving them. I need to move on with my life. I need to let them know that I ( Read more... )

Well need lest to say things have been weird the past few days. My feelings are driving me nuts. I want nothing more then to feel dead to them. Ya right like that is going to happen with me. Well lets see where to start oh I got it here goes. 1 In love with someone that will never love me back. 2. Trapped in a relationship with no way out (well ( Read more... )

I have made a decicion about my life and I am not afraid anymore. I have given myself a year to make my dreams of being free real. I no longer fear him. I am going to move and start my life anew. I have to make sure that my children are safe. I know that he will be mad and hurt when I leave, but there is nothing I can do about that. He will never ( Read more... )

Still not sleeping well. I sleep for a few hours and then wake up and can't get my mind to shut off long enough for me to go back to sleep. I know why, but I can't tell anyone. It dose not matter anyway even if I could tell it would not matter. It would not change anything at least I think that it would not. I guess I will never know either way, ( Read more... )

I wonder how I can have feelings for you. Yet you say you feel nothing for me. You say that you don't want me to get atached to you. To late I already am. I can't stop it I have been trying. I like you too much. I know that I will never be able to have you like I want you. I know that my heart will brake when you leave. I wonder if you will ever ( Read more... )