LOL life is funny. My sister is coming out to my house for almost a mounth. YA weird i know she hates me always has. So ya. Weird is all i got to say ( Read more... )

OK i have detemend that my life at this point sucks if it were to get anymore stress full. I think that i would just off myself LOL NO I AM JK. OK here is what is up i need to get it out of my head i can't sleep so here goes. OK my freind moved to LA this week cryed like a baby when he left. NO I don't think you get it i curled into a ball on the ( Read more... )

I am worried about a freind of mine he is having a hard time geting everything done that he needs done. I want him to know that I am here if he needs me for anything. He is my freind and I hate seeing him stressed out. I wish I knew what to do to help. WELL HERE I AM IF YOU NEED HELP!!!!!!!

Something bad happend to me and I can't tell the one person that I know would make everything better. If I do tell him now I could destroy him and I don't want that. I know alot about him and this would make him lose it. I don't want that. I don't want him to do something stupid because he is pissed off and can't do anything about it from where he ( Read more... )

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I was thinking that maybe I should see a shrink, lol no really. I have been wondering why I do what I do and why I think the way that I think. I have noticed a pattern in my life. I do things that hurt me more than anyone else. I do them even though I know it will hurt me. I feel things that I know that I should not feel. In the end I hurt. I keep ( Read more... )

I had a dream last night which for me is weird I never dream. Anyways in the dream I was older and so was the kids he was older too. In my dream I was with him with the kids at a park and we were having a picknic and the kids were playing and were happy. I was happy too and I did not know why but I feel like something is going to happen. I was ( Read more... )

I wish I was tired. I wish that I did not feel like I do righ now. I can't sleep anymore and that sucks. I wish that you would tell me the hole truth but insted you want to hide it from me so you don't hurt me well here is an ideal. Don't the damage is already done you can't make it any worse. I wonder if the only time you will tell me the truth is ( Read more... )

it seems that it has been forever since I wrote in this... well that is because it has been LOL. It is now 6:30am and have been up since like 10am yesterday. I can't sleep. I have tryed my brain will not stop working. You would think that with a newborn I would sleep more LOL. NO way my tits hurt to much to sleep. Why you mite ask well it seems ( Read more... )

I wounder why I do what I do even if I know it is wrong. Why do I let him hurt me again and again? Why am I so sad tonight. I want nothing more then to be happy but it seems like everytime I think that I am close something happens and then I get sad again? Will someone please help me.