Comments | alexythmia: They're on to me! ::shifty eyes::

alexythmia

They're on to me! ::shifty eyes::

Jan 25, 2008 13:51

Hi friends.

The other day my best friend revealed to me that my ex-third roommate (who she still lives with until we move into our own place together on March 1st, yay!) approached my best friend about how she thinks I have an eating disorder. When I first heard about it, I felt like my stomach had fallen out of my butt (in the immortal words of ( Read more... )

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bonesbytwilight January 25 2008, 23:13:01 UTC

when I get in binge mode there's no use fighting it, because I won't win. I just have to let it run its course. same here. it's like a fog lifts and it's over for me. thankfully, i think i only have a couple small, small binge episodes per year, otherwise i would have a hard time being so reasonable and stuff about letting it run it's course.

i always find it amusing that nobody in my family has ever asked me about anything EVER. i have pictures of girls with shirts on that say 'size zero", i ONLY eat soup (and it's a running joke, so my parents will buy me soup by the case and diet pepsi every time they go out to be funny/nice), i always work out, and every.single.morning, i walk to the bathroom with my scale in my hands.

and yet, seriously, if anyone said to my parents that they thought i had an ED, they would probably crack up in humorous disbelief.

so did they basically brush it off after you spoke about it and asked?

<3 you!

alexythmia January 25 2008, 23:27:54 UTC

My parents are the same way. Sometimes I even like to see how far I can push it by making (what I think are) kind of obvious comments, but they never catch on. I think it's hard for a lot of parents to admit that their kid might have a problem, so unless it's really in their face they tend to ignore it. I also think it's SO hard to define what is normal and what is not in our warped society.

When my friend told me what my old roommate had said I laughed about it. And anytime my friends have mentioned anorexia to me I also laugh about it and tell them they're crazy. It's awful how easy I am able to deceive everyone, but what is the alternative?

I love you toooo! Have a great weekend!!

spyral_path January 25 2008, 23:23:39 UTC

I'm surprised that everyone dosn't ask me if I have an eating disorder. So far all I've gotten is a couple of oblique comments from a co-worker.

I thought of a few alternatives if the gym won't let you bring your dog. You could say you're still housebreaking her and can't leave her alone for very long, but if that doesn't work you could always put the dog in her carrier purse and go for a walk, or you could go all out and get one of those jogging cycles and push her around in that while you go for a run. Sometimes I see people out bicycling pulling dogs behind them in these little meshed in contraptions that I think are meant for babies. Your dog would probably fit in a regular bike basket anyway.

alexythmia January 25 2008, 23:31:27 UTC

That's a great idea! I would never have thought of that myself, thank you for the suggestion.

As far as people making comments to your face...I can maybe understand someone very close to you expressing concern over your weight loss, but I think it would be kind of callous for someone who might not know you as well, like a coworker to make any kind of comments. Personally, that would really annoy me and I would have to find a way to kindly tell them to mind their own business.

spyral_path January 26 2008, 05:24:06 UTC

I've worked at rhe same place with most of the same people for nine years now. So we're kind of like family.

torishaze January 25 2008, 23:26:52 UTC

I keep thinking about the whole binge thing and how eventually it will just turn itself around again so I've stopped freaking out over it. It always does.

As for your ex-roomie... I'd say the same about not knowing someone has an eating disorder unless they suffer as well. I had a bulimic friend in high school and we were very close but I didn't know when she did it or how often. I wasn't suffering from anything at the time so I was completely unaware. Later I found out she'd gone so far, she had to resort to shoving things down her throat to be able to throw up. I also learned that there was no use in telling her mom because her mom knew and didn't care. She wanted my friend to be thinner - like her older sister - and not muscular as she was/is.

Still though, some people are very observant and running the water for an hour is a dead giveaway.

alexythmia January 25 2008, 23:32:44 UTC

That is so, so sad about your friend. Is it any surprise she has issues after being raised by a woman like that? How is she doing now?

torishaze January 26 2008, 00:03:23 UTC

We aren't friends anymore because she's a total bitch but I saw some pictures of her and she's overweight now. She's still beautiful because well, she was always super gorgeous but I don't think she's throwing up anymore.

I'm happy to see she's gained weight because it makes me believe she has gotten better. At least I hope she has.

alexythmia January 25 2008, 23:35:04 UTC

Btw, your user pic is so pretty. You're fricken gorgeous.

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girlfriend120 January 27 2008, 01:22:59 UTC

You know, I never really go out of my way to hide my behaviors. Who gives a shit if I go out to "dinner" with my friends and I just order a glass of wine (which I'll get blasted on because I've barely eaten). If I do actually eat in front of people, I eat weird stuff like dry salad with mustard, or I pick every grain of rice off my sushi roll. I went out to teppanyaki once and took every vegetable and stuck it in my napkin to soak off the stir-fry oil right in front of everyone, including the strangers that were at our station. It's what I do, it's who I am.

I guess I'm just like, if you're going to concern yourself with my food behaviors, then really concern yourself, ya' know? Don't make little offhand, veiled comments at me. I can honestly say that I don't tell more people because their feelings seem to get in the way. I'll talk about it 'till I'm blue in the face, but frankly people don't want to listen because ED's are so tough to understand. They can't get past their preconceived notions, judgments, or their own agendas and ( ... )

alexythmia March 3 2008, 18:59:30 UTC

Please rant away! I love the feedback.

I guess I'm just like, if you're going to concern yourself with my food behaviors, then really concern yourself, ya' know? Don't make little offhand, veiled comments at me. I can honestly say that I don't tell more people because their feelings seem to get in the way. I'll talk about it 'till I'm blue in the face, but frankly people don't want to listen because ED's are so tough to understand. They can't get past their preconceived notions, judgments, or their own agendas and actually listen to our fumbled attempts to explain such a complicated life.This is so well said, and I totally agree. Most of the time I just don't give an eff if people notice, but like you said, I sometimes feel like I have to use discretion so as not to make others uncomfortable (just like you said). I totally understand why people don't get it, it's something no one can possibly comprehend if they are not living it. I just wish people were more educated about it and other manifestations of mental illness. For example, ( ... )