1. I stopped to get gas on my lunch break and some cute guys pulled up at the pump next to me. They were really friendly and said hello and asked me how I was. Then after I went inside to pay for my gas and came back out they were leaving so they said, "Bye! Have a good day!" I like when random dudes can just be nice without expecting anything, and ( Read more... )

My poor laptop currently has a virus and until it's well I have to rely on my work computer. But I can't stay away any longer! I missed you all so much, and more than ever I'm wishing we all lived down the block from each other because I could use the amazing support you guys provide right about now; No one in real life can possibly understand what ( Read more... )

Hi friends.

The other day my best friend revealed to me that my ex-third roommate (who she still lives with until we move into our own place together on March 1st, yay!) approached my best friend about how she thinks I have an eating disorder. When I first heard about it, I felt like my stomach had fallen out of my butt (in the immortal words of ( Read more... )

I've been consciously avoiding LJ because I am attempting "recovery". I haven't binged or purged in almost two weeks, which is amazing for me. I've been eating "normally", listening to my body cues and doing the whole intuitive thing. I have to say it has been a pretty incredible and eye-opening experience. It's so beautiful and gives me so much ( Read more... )

I am feeling so unbelievably alone right now. And horribly, horribly guilty. Hey, there's something new! I swear, I live my life in a perpetual state of guilt.

I need to confess something that has been eating away at me. Allow me to be long-winded and melodramatic for a bit and then tell me I'm not a horrible, manipulative person, OK? Thanks.

Here' ( Read more... )

I have so much to update about but it will have to wait until my head is more clear. I woke up at noon today and since then I have done nothing but go back and forth between my bedroom and the bathroom. It's been a while since I've spent a whole day consistently eating and puking; Since I began taking Prozac it has been less frequent. Once I get in ( Read more... )

Once again my impulsivity and need for immediate gratification has gotten me in trouble. I'm just playing grown-up. I don't have the slightest idea how to take care of myself, and I no longer want to. I want a hug. I want my mom. I want everything to be okay and to feel content ( Read more... )

Missed you all ( Read more... )

Answer: No ( Read more... )

And I'm panicking. I'm on serious damage control from now until Christmas ( Read more... )