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[alfabitsewp]

this is a vent for myself, if you read this you'll most likely be offended and may even grow a hate for me. which isn't the point of this  i've just been thinking too much and i need to let it out and not to just to myself.

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[crackapunkapina]

i'm sorry... i will hang out with you any time... i just feel like a burden when i call you because you need to drive me everywhere... i realize you don't feel that way... but... yeah... *huggle* i get how you feel

[alfabitsewp]

aww don't feel like a burden. it would be different if you did have a car and just refused to drive but you don't and that's okies. i can't be mad at you for something you can't control <33

[bleekrainbow]

I'm not offended or anything and such. this is from the heart and it's truth. On many levels and points here I feel the same so I kinda see where your coming from. I truely am sorry for anything and everything I did it make you feel mad and such. I truely am, suga. <333

[alfabitsewp]

we talked on the phone about this
thanks for calling. it helped a lot
and the laughing.. i liked the laughing

[anonymous]

I am not in the mood to defend myself so I am not going to. No point. I wasn't planning on hanging out with him christmas eve actually, it just happened. Go ahead and vent, i don't care. I am not going to lie and say things are the way they used to be. I have never been the friend people think I am. I have never been the person people think I am. You can be mad and hate me all you want. That goes for anyone who reads this. I am not offended, im used to it. I still love you though... all of you.

~Eri

[anonymous]

P.S. Sorry for the pain I have caused people.

[alfabitsewp]

i don't hate you nor am i mad at you. but what i can't stand is the fact that you call me one of your best friends and you don't even seem to care. I was sitting here bawling, feeling rejected by you, replaced by gareth and just all around in a shithole.. and all you can say is "i don't care"... that's what hurts the most. because you know that adds more confidence in the relationship that we have. but yeah.. maybe we should have an intervention of some sort...haha... friendship couciling... and i still love you just not as much this past week as before i came home

[anonymous]

Talked about this ^ never said I didnt care and never ment to imply it. I just cant fight the accusations against me.

[alfabitsewp]

yeah it happens this is a few years of anger i think built up inside.. it was about time i was due to explode

[viles]

People suck that's the sad truth to it. I know this shit all too well and (this may or may not be helpful but just hear me out), things happen for a reason. I've taken to heart a great little saying from an awsome movie. SSDD (same shit different day). This is probably not at all helpful in the least, if I was in the right mental and emotional state of mine trust me, this would be very helpful. So yeah I appologise for this not being helpful, I'm just speaking from my experience with this shit and that the sad truth is that it all happens for a reason. This'll all work itself out in one way or another. For the good or the bad. It's all up in the air and all one can do is try to help them fall in to place, without forcing things to fall into place (I sound so fucking mediphorical right now =/). But yeah try not to let things get to you so hard, as it will just only make things worse as I've learned. This is getting long so I'll just end with Merry late Christmas and Happy New Year and good luck with school and shit.

-Matt-

[alfabitsewp]

yeah i try to believe that but after a few years of things welling inside i just need to vent a little. it helps just like crying but thanks for reminding me cause i do forget sometimes
miss ya boy who stole my birthdate = )

<333