Life is messy. Relationships are messy. Love is not all you need. You need mutual respect, compromise, sacrifice, understanding, the willingness to work at it and stand by him or her when times get rough. You need to be willing to be by their side not only during the bright days but also during the dark ones. To encourage them to become the best ( Read more... )

After thinking about it, the only thing that's still hard is knowing that he can call you delusional, make you feel unappreciated for all you've done, and I can rescue you countless times and still be second to that. That you can tell me I make you feel sexy, confident, and want the world to know that no one else can come between us, and a week ( Read more... )

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up a whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, ( Read more... )

Even as I've cleared my mind, faced myself and my fears, still my subconscious allows me no rest. Awake, I can go on with my day with very few thoughts of you making their way into my mind. Asleep? That's an entirely different matter. I just had back to back dreams as if I were continuing a movie I played the part in. A moment of holding you again ( Read more... )

I went so long without feeling any of this. I was proud of the new me. I was free from the pain. But now it's back. Not unbearable, but still sore. The pain I thought I was through with. So you get to hear this final rant.

I don't care that he hates me. I mean. He's the winner. He has a right to look down on me. He gets to hear all the terrible ( Read more... )

Why? Why such a dream? Why now? It's all so far behind so why? Having such a strong negative dream of Xeno, and now this. What's going on? That was too real for "just a dream" . That was regret. Strong, deep regret. Why would you? How could you? My subconscious playing tricks? Maybe... But visions like these are usually more than that. Do I ( Read more... )

Times like these I don't particularly understand. It's as if my past never happened. I feel pissed off about certain things but, overall, I hardly think of anything. It's that strange calm feeling of "nothing is important, I'm just alive". Not numb, persay. Rather, I'm more emotional than ever. Things upset me quicker and I'm faster to openly tell ( Read more... )

Your mascara still stains my jacket right where you laid your head over my heart that night, crying. It's the one thing that still brings tears to my eyes. The one moment I was ever sure I had made a mistake. An eternal reminder of the night I broke both our hearts.

~Axiom

After almost 10 years, I'm back to this again. I've gone 8 months without her. Longest I've ever had to endure. I'm not sad or depressed. Not heartbroken. Just... alone. I legitimately just feel lonely. I haven't felt this way in such a long time, I had almost forgotten what it feels like. My bed feels as emtpy as my heart: There's no one in it. * ( Read more... )

Dreams again. We talk. I get to the end of my sentance but I can't speak. It's inaudible or my voice gives out. I don't know which.

She was on my mind today for the first time in a long time so I asked her a question. She answered by not answering. That's my answer. A gamble. Never being sure I'll ever know fact from fiction. A yes or no too hard? ( Read more... )