i'm pathetic

[aliceinked]

I am so fucking pathetic. I had a goddamn panic attack yesterday, because I was trying to call the fucking doctor. I hate fucking doctors. The only reason I'm even going is because my landlords were threatening to evict me if I didn't. So now I have an apppointment for the 14th to find out whether or not I'm preggers, but I'm severly freaking out

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[the_7th_swan]

*pats head* don't worry about it. I once had a full fledged panic attack in (you ready?) the *shower*.

To make matters worse, I'd never had a panic attack before in my life so I didn't know what the f was happening! Which made the panic attack even worse, of course, because it fueled the paranoiathat is so common.

As to what I was panicing about? Exams. That's right -I had a absolute panic attack *in my shower* because of a simple *university exam*.

I think the point of panic attacks is that they're irrational. I was absolutely mortified afterwards but I felt better when I considered that, if nothing else, it made for an interesting story, ^^

[aliceinked]

Definetly an interesting story! I have them all the time (or at least i used to. It's been a while) so I know what's going on but it's like incredibly stupid shit that sets me off. That's what annoys me so bad. I mean.. seriously? I was calling the doctor. And then I realized I've never been to the doctor by myself before (which is just plain pathetic) so that set me off all over again.