(c) And it certainly doesn't help that, when I'm upset I can't really get my thoughts to turn into sentences and I get freaked and she just keeps trying to act like she isn't treating me like I'm stupid, like she isn't acting like she's knows so much more than me and it's just so fucking frustrating!

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Ugh, I keep trying to teach people things and they won't listen, especially my mother! I've done so much research on what I talk about, and she doesn't do any, and she still acts like she knows fucking oceans more than I do about what we talk about. Not to mention the fact that I've actually been through or I'm currently going through a lot of it ( Read more... )

(c) He is not there to make MY decisions. This is my body, and my life. No one else's. My flab, my scars, my habits. They're mine, and they're no one else's concern unless I say so.

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Okay, so I went to my diabetes doctor last Thursday. All body positivity was destroyed, but I have managed to regain it (along with a ton of newfound rage). I mean, I know I'm overweight. I'm 5 feet and 3/4 of an inch, and I'm 163 lbs. I'm also very unhealthy. I mostly eat bad food and I don't go out much. But that's my choice. My doctor is ( Read more... )

Ugh, I keep freaking out over all these tiny little things. I keep getting frustrated over small things, and I tell myself to stop, this is is stupid, all that but there's this part of my brain that's always trying to make up excuses or blame somebody else. I keep telling it to stop, and I can make it quieter, but it just keeps happening. It's ( Read more... )

My mom is treating me like a total basket case. She's acting like I'm a complete idiot, and she just doesn't understand. I shouldn't be mad at her, it's my fault, but I'm just really pissed and I don't know what to do. I tried hitting my head on the wall, and now every time I do it again I just get dizzy. I don't think that's good... God, how ( Read more... )

God, how am I going to survive?

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I just wish everyone was dead. Or that I was dead. Either way.

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I want help, but I don't, you know? I wish someone would help me, but the moment they try I just get so pissed off. It's just so fucking annoying.

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My mom found out I was cutting. God, I wish I was dead.

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