wow so i just went back and read some of my updates from like last season and last valentines day and all that...its amazing how you write shit saying that u think things will never get better and that guard sux and you dont think you will ever be happy... oh my how things change! i guess this time last year i never thought id be in a meaningful ( Read more... )

hrmm... things are going really good lately... im finally back with her... finally happy again... guard is going really good... in some aspects... some things are kinda sucky...but whatever... im jus really happy... i love her sooo much... lol i dont really have much more to say other then....IM GLAD TO BE BACK!!! oh yeah and saturday night was ( Read more... )

why cant anything be easy... i really wish i could jus go buy a book that would tell be exactly what to do with my life.... but anyways... i know i want to be with her... i know i love her... and i know i could be so freakin happy with her, i know all this yet im not with her... so why? why am i not with her. the answer... someone else very ( Read more... )

hey people...wow its been like forever....so alot of things have happened in the last few months...but finally things are kinda getting back to normal...specially since guard will be starting up again soon...well hopefully anyway...im kinda doubting myself after saturdays camp...dunno why i just am... i just feel like i really sucked major ass... ( Read more... )

hmm... so its been a wierd couple weeks...had a lot of thinking to do and alot of mistakes were made...but most of all i hurt someone i really care about....it sux when u realize u dont wanna be with someone but ur not sure how to end it...and then you pick the worst possible way there is to do it...thats what i did!!! i felt like an ass...hell i ( Read more... )

blah...hrm... not much to really talk about...work is going okay...i still need to find a new job or at least another one...life is good...it really is...im actually happy...which i dont say that often...but i am...the days just kinda mush together... i miss guard...at least then i knew what day it was...haha...i dunno it will be starting up again ( Read more... )

Your Inner European is Russian!


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so today was good... i woke up at like 1pm which was hella nice...my mommy called and we met up for lunch at Crispers...that place rocks they have the best sandwiches in the world... and i actually did accomplish something today... after lunch i came home and decided to was going to actually clean out my car and wash it...ugh it looks so much ( Read more... )

ok so thats it... im done with men for a while. im so over giving people chance after chance and gettin screwed in the end. im just done... so i have kinda developed a bit of a crush on someone...im not naming names... but yeah i dunno my eyes jus kinda opened to this person... but im def over men!!! i think its time for me to move on.. guys are ( Read more... )

so i havent updated in what seems like forever....so i figure now is as goos a time as any. just got back from dayton...li really didnt want to leave...the time there was soo amzing...much differant from san diego but def jus as good. short bus was fun fun fun def glad i did that. but yeah the bus ride sucked major ass especially up to dayton i jus ( Read more... )