the phone ringS  and i am still asleep. i said i would have someone call and wake him up. i had been dreaming about him. holding me. just holding me it was so warm. " hey baby. (moan) what time is it?" " nine forty" he says.  we talk about what we are doing that day like every day. never coming to a conclusion and jsut winging it. the conversation ( Read more... )

well lets see. what has been going on with alissa. hmmm, i dunno. Been hanging out with Babribo (Brian) lately ofcourse. and well it has been nice. i hope that he calls me tonight when he gets off work but i think he will be too tired. I need to get a freakin job. All i have been feeling lately besides my favorite feelings of love and lust is that ( Read more... )

so yah this weekend was cool. drank like usual. you all know how it is. my man hunt is on a serious slump. i havent been looking really but i never have trouble findin men. its jsut whether they are good or not. anyways yah lets see her. theres a new waiter at pearl sharis. chris hes from montana.. i mean renton. lol. just like im from denver what ( Read more... )

well i hadnt called nate in a while and i knew hed call me and he did. i spent the night with him and didnt sleep with him. ha skill. anyways he told me again tha id be his only if i started opening up with him sexually. i think i could do that and well its not like i dotn want to. he doesnt ever ask me to do something. he jsut expects me to know ( Read more... )

well my weekend was okay like usual i do think that i later will ( Read more... )

i worked out and tanned today. went in a hot tub and a swimming too. it was a pretty good day. im mad at nate agian i wish he owuld call so i could say come fuck me for the last time because i dont need you anymore. im getting sick of all the people that treat me the way they do. i swear. its impossible to find a good guy. i dont know where i have ( Read more... )

well. yah. i spent the night with brian even though i claim to hate him. its because i still have feelings for him. and no the night we spent together didnt fuck up alot of the things i had been thinking or anything like that. i dont know what it did to me. i do know that i hate this keyboard and i should get a new one. i also know that the brian ( Read more... )

well yah. my plans for tonight have been cancelled and so were my plans for last night. we were supposed to go camping and that didnt happened. but yah. anyways my cellphone has been disconnected. so no one can reach me when i am not around someone else. trying to find a way to get a new one but it doesnt look very bright. oh well im never letting ( Read more... )

honestly, is it weird for me to think that if i am in a relationship with someone that i think that its better to know if they are cheating on you and have an agreement about it rather than it jsut be behind your back. maybe my outlook has changed wehn i was with brian i was all about the whole monogomy thing but now i dont want to get hurt again ( Read more... )

well this weekend was awesome a guy gave me a bus card and bought me mcdonalds and starbucks. now i have been craving starbucks but it costs too much. met a guy named robbie we went everywhere, nowhere and everywhere in between. it was cool. i met his sargeant he is sexy id do him and i think he liked me too. he said he hopes to see me again. i ( Read more... )