Posty-post post

[alizarin_nyc]

Update on The Brit: attempt to be "friends," texting, some warmth, some weirdness... mostly fucked up shit that I shall cease blabbing about because it's complicated and hard and sometimes good but mostly just bad for me probably and I deserve better... SIGH

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[anonymous]

I miss the Irishman. I wish I go beyond 4 dates. An upstate hike. Something. I spent two nights putting up and decorating my tree. It is so lovely. Then I drank wine and cried until I passed out from loneliness. Happy Holidays! I miss you and love you. We indeed deserve so much better and I don't understand how that seems like so much to expect or ask for.

[alizarin_nyc]

Crying and feeling lonely seem to be especially acute around the holidays even if you have family! I don't know why I feel so low. But I know it's in the air.

Miss you and love you too!!!!!!!