alizarin

Oh look, another post

alizarin_nyc Oct 29, 2015 13:23

I'm writing a post. I need to write something, just to be writing. I'm working on deadlines and that's ... good, but I'm also so damn distracted. I feel overwhelmed by the housework. As one does when one has other things one ought to be doing. I think this is part of life -- being overwhelmed by daily tasks ( Read more... )

Snippets of stuff from a former life.

alizarin_nyc Sep 30, 2015 14:57

You know when you're going through old papers because the cats peed on them, and you're very visibly downsizing and clearing out your home and you come across pages and pages of neatly written fan-smut ( Read more... )

randomalia, what to expect when you're alive

Dear Author Letter (Small Fandom Exchange)

alizarin_nyc Aug 21, 2015 22:50

Dear Author ( Read more... )

dear author, small fandom exchange

Brain dump of sorts.

alizarin_nyc Aug 05, 2015 12:53

Me again ( Read more... )

cats, write now, family, jobs, anxiety, what the actual fuck, what to expect when you're alive, depression

Am I dead?

alizarin_nyc Aug 03, 2015 12:12

Hello there. Been a long time ( Read more... )

anger management, the brit, humans, dating wtf, sense8, family, friends, anxiety, what to expect when you're alive, depression, teen wolf

(Untitled)

alizarin_nyc Apr 07, 2015 11:34

There is a lot going on with me. I'm doing this thing -- processing -- which sounds either like I'm a computer or it's some new-agey, therapy thing. But it's helpful. Turning over the earth rather than packing it down. Assessing how I feel at any point... assessing why I feel bad when I do... but also if I check in with myself and I feel happy or ( Read more... )

depression, what to expect when you're alive

Oh hi, I just have a job-searching rant

alizarin_nyc Apr 05, 2015 20:11

I look for and at jobs. All the time. I'm looking for work but I don't really believe I'll find it on the job boards or by sending my resume into that black hole... plus a shit-ton of personal information, plus my "previous employment," not apparent I guess, by my resume! Every job app takes hours in this manner - so it's a 1 job/3 hour ratio which ( Read more... )

maudlin me, jobs, what the actual fuck, what to expect when you're alive

Here's something weird!

alizarin_nyc Mar 25, 2015 00:05

I was thinking about fanfic today and how I'd gotten this really great comment on one of my fics. And how I haven't written in over a year and have had no desire to, in fact, don't READ fanfic at all, ever, any more ( Read more... )

write now, ask the f-list, fanfic, reading, anxiety, depression

Some OSCAR ranting, yay!

alizarin_nyc Feb 22, 2015 00:10

I'm in the midst of an epic Oscar-watching/self-pity-party of epic proportions. Thus far I have made it through (or previously seen) the following ( Read more... )

oscars, cinema, maudlin me, ranty mcrant, female roles, what the actual fuck, benedict cumberbatch

My imaginary real friends.

alizarin_nyc Jan 23, 2015 16:12

This article in the Wash Post made me think of you guys. Yes, it's about paying for a service to text you as a fake boyfriend or girlfriend and I find that not as weird as I should... BUT it is much like our online communities, where we develop friendships with people we don't know and come to rely on them... (read through to THAT part, I'm not ( Read more... )

maudlin me, ask the f-list, fandom, anxiety