This life I've created for myself is a miserable hell.  I'm stuck in a rut that is driving me crazy . . . my soul is weary.  They say "Its not what you do, it's how you do it" . . . yeah, well, I'm doing it all wrong.  I need to join an escort service or get an ad in The Chronicle - maybe a website.  THis street walking shit is dirty and dangerous ( Read more... )

I'm so bored . . .as usual. Seems to be a neverending cycle of boredom. I NEED A FUCKING JOB ( Read more... )

Just sitting here at Phil's house, hanging out with him and Roach and James. Nothing too exciting happening. Re-reading my few past journal entries. Update on the Ashley and George thing - Talked to Ashley face to face and saw that she is telling the truth when she says that she and George are NOT fucking around. She said she calls him to ask ( Read more... )

I got this from someone else's LJ and felt like answering them . . . yikes ( Read more... )

Well, considering I lost my boyfriend AND my best friend, I'm surprisingly upbeat. I've been trying to entertain myself. My drinking has increased, but so has my social life! I can't believe that bitch, Ashley. George and I break up and she completely turns her back on me - OH! but she still talks with him and hangs out with him. What the ( Read more... )

Just wanted to add something ( Read more... )

I just finished writing a very long LJ entry about my body malfunctioning in different ways over the last month and my PC "encountered an error" just as I finished and kicked me out. So I lost everything. Oh well, it was just boring details about me being sick and/or in pain for the entire last month. Kidney stone, then stomach virus, and now ( Read more... )

So, I am finally at that point in my life where I want to make some serious changes. I cannot continue living this way. This isn't living. I can't even support myself (much less my habits!). Constantly relying on boyfriends or parents for food, shelter, cigarettes (I NEED to quit, 15 years now!), and all my other wants. I'm spoiled and selfish ( Read more... )