okay. so last night i get really pissed off. like i have been about this entire taylor situation. so i text him and say "so are you going to tell me what i did?" and he never responds. so i get fucking even more pissed off. head to the beach to take a nice walk around 8pm. i stay for an hour, see some cuties, smile, walk to a good beat back to my ( Read more... )

So Taylor and I haven't really spoken at all since he was here for the BBQ last weekend. He "lost" his phone for a week and when we've talked he doesn't keep the conversation going. He hasn't been texting me first or anything. Today has really been the first day I've had emotion about it ( Read more... )

he texted yesterday and said he lost his phone at his friends house, and he just got it back. so lets say i believe this story. he talks to me like everything is fine and its all whatever. i ask him if i am going to be seeing him before he leaves on the 1st.. and he said sure and asked when my days off were. then i told him and he said saturday hes ( Read more... )

I called at 9 pm. He didn't ignore the call but he didn't answer either. I didn't know his voicemail beeped ... and I was talking to my aunt and said "I don't know what to say" then I waited and said "God I'm in so much pain" and I hung up. Now I'm realizing I probably left that on his fucking voicemail. :( fuck my life ( Read more... )

so. i changed my number this morning. to appease people and myself. fresh start. no more tim or john having my number, or unwanted people. i texted taylor last night, against my better judgement, and said "thinking of you" around 930pm. no response. so i figure its whatever, hes busy, he will text me some time in the morning (today). so... i change ( Read more... )

So its been 3 days and I haven't heard from him. And tonight I texted and said "thinking of you" no response which is fine. But then I started to think about our last conversation on Sunday and how we got in a misunderstanding about Tim. Maybe that's why he's not talking to me. I don't know. I hope I see him before he leaves though because I want ( Read more... )

so last night i wrote this huge huge journal entry about the bbq with taylor on saturday and apparently it got deleted so i am kinda grr err grr err about it. so i will try my best to re-do it ( Read more... )

lol so bright and early on day 3...guess who said good morning. thats right. lol oh it made me gush. and then we started talking today and i have to drop tims atm card off with him tomorrow and taylor is going to escort me there. i am pleased. i didnt even have to ask, he offered. it was so nice. "do you want me to pick you up in my truck and then ( Read more... )

So he didn't come over last night... but we did go to dinner. It was so nice. He's so hot. I get butterflies and I can't ever stop smiling when I'm around him. We talked about everything. We met there at 8pm and then didn't leave until almost 10. Of course we were done eating after the first 40 minutes but we stayed and talked. It was so nice. I ( Read more... )

So I didn't text or call him at all Thursday. Nor did he text or call me. Then this morning he texts me and says good morning. I hesitated for a bit but then said morning. He asked how far I was from base and I said about 15 minutes. So he said he has to take a piss test and do a blood test and then he's free and would like to see me. So I smiled ( Read more... )