where did you go when you walked out ( Read more... )

i am quitting smoking. it sucks. i am trying to use the mentality of "i can smoke if i want to, but i don't want to. i'm not a smoker, but neither am i a non-smoker. i just don't need or want it". i'm not sure if this is working ( Read more... )

i don't know what to do with myself. my life is exactly as good as i ever pictured. there's nothing else to do and i want to know that it's not true. waiting is a terrible activity and a waste of time. i can't sit still and i can't move forward.
when are you going to call me and tell me it's all alright?
when am i going to let myself be okay?

waking with a broken heart
reluctant to arise
i close my eyes and dream in negligence
waiting for the sky to fall
we all drown in sorrows inevitably
we've tried so many times
our wells have run dry

song #7 ( Read more... )

oh livejournal...it's been so long ( Read more... )

once again, someone has already said what needs to be said i need not explain my situation ( Read more... )

human beings do not need water to survive
i checked my sources and the facts have all been verified
oh god save us from hypocrisy
heaven forbid i should ever appear as a fool
in the eyes of such all-knowing ones
some seventh day advent preacher
with a fancy sports car
trying to tell me right from wrong

i am a bipolar idiot and i think i should stop spilling so much guts.

i should probably deactive this fuckin thing and start an actual journal.

slataaaaa...

-gabe

i dont know why i look forward to anything ( Read more... )