In My Wheelhouse

[alleyalligator]

All I ever wanted was to be a mum, to hold my own baby in my arms, smell its soft, newborn smell, shower its head with kisses, cuddle it from dawn ‘til dusk.  When I got pregnant with Tara, I can’t describe how happy I was to see those little blue lines.  Everyone said that I was a natural mother and when I fell pregnant with Tilly when Tara was

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[i_17bingo]

This reminds me of a line from Season 3 of Angel, where he refers (jokingly of course) to his baby as a "snack."

It's hard to be sympathetic with someone who wants to eat their kids, but I'll be damned if you don't pull it off.

[alleyalligator]

Ah yes. Angel. So much broodiness in one brow!

[notodette]

How long were you gone?

This is a brave, extremely brave, piece, especially if it's non-fiction.

[alleyalligator]

This journal contains exclusively fiction and in this case, vampire fiction. I do know women who have walked out on their children for various reasons, but I'm not one of them. It is definitely one of those big taboos in our society though and it takes an awful lot for any woman to leave her babies behind.

[notodette]

Haha, I missed this line: "You haven’t lived until you’ve drunk the blood of a newborn, the heady bouquet of that special scent filling your nostrils, creating a multisensory experience unlike any other."

And the others I took as artistic tools.

Silly me.

[alleyalligator]

LOL! I wanted to be all subtle this time around and not bang people over the head with IT'S A VAMPIRE!!! That way people would think a bit more closely about how hard mothering can be for some women and not get caught up with the supernatural aspects of the tale. Clearly, I succeeded :D

[alleyalligator]

Thanks! I worked really hard to make it subtle - I think the notion of walking out on your children so you don't hurt them is horrifying enough, so I wanted that to be a little cherry on the top rather than the focus of the piece.

[copyright1983]

Wow, again. You're quickly moving onto my list of "favorites to win this thing." (Friending you so I don't have to wait to read.)

[alleyalligator]

You've just jinxed it now!

I'm not going to win, but I figure I might make it to top 30 before it all gets too brutal and I'm gone. Which is cool - I'm pretty stunned to have made it this far with no previous support and no pimping, so anything from now on is just gravy.

[ellakite]

It's true what they say:

Nothing's more important than family...

A darkly amusing little tale. Thanks so much for sharing this.

[alleyalligator]

Thanks. It took a while to come together in my mind, but I hadn't done vampires yet so I figured now was the time!