My life sucks. I'm feeling very caustic. I used to just want to breathe smoke, but now I hope for acidic clouds. I want to say things I'll regret and delete. I want to find someone who cares that I'm still alive. I want to blame others for me being so worthless. I want to split my abdomen and spill my guts in all the horrifying graphic detail of ( Read more... )

Lately, I have been feeling influenced by things through a degree of separation. That's not exactly the proper wording. I have noticed the influence of things that I have not directly experienced. Examples of the moment being John Hughes and Woody Allen movies. Up until fairly recently, I had never seen any of the classic John Hughes movies ( ( Read more... )

One of my best friends is having a baby! I'm happy for them in a way that I can't really put words to, and actually makes me tear up a little (on the inside). It's the same kind of feeling I get when I think about my nephews.

I deleted everything else. I'm depressed, but don't worry, I'll get over it.

The difference between the X-Files and Fringe says something about how we as a society have changed since I was a child. I do not know what this is ( Read more... )

I am upset.

The difference in the quality of even $20 headphones to $40 or more earbuds is always interesting to me. It appears to just be a fact of the device. The sound quality of the music we listen to now is usually lower than that of 20-30 years ago. I mean there is always that vinyl/CD (really analog/digital) debate, which isn't technically valid, but ( Read more... )

I really hate that I'm never going to have the life I wanted ( Read more... )

It's so hard to be a misogynist and fawn over every woman that shows me the slightest bit of interest.

I feel like women are always lying to me, though. I can't decide if that is just lingering paranoia or a simple fact. From past experience, the best one can hope for are half truths and misdirection.

I'm bored and I have no one to talk to.

It's right on the verge of 4am now and I just got home from work. I have not been home before midnight this week, and last week not before 9. I am exhausted. But the work I do is awesome. Like where else in the world can I get to do stuff this awesome. My boss arranged for those of us who worked ridiculous hours to take tomorrow off. I am skipping ( Read more... )

So I went to a gay Chinese New Year party last night(held a week late, but with very good food).

I just kinda felt the need to share that.