maybe i should stop having such optomistic goals...

such outlandish dreams...

cause i'm not strong enough to stay dedicated and persistant enough to achieve them...so i just set myself up for failure

so far so good! but i will admit i had next to no free time today. i spent all day catching up on the sleep i had lost worrying about the before said issue

that i make the biggest, single most important commitment of my entire 22 year old existence.

i havn't done it today...and it feels so nice

havn't really wanted to though, the big test is the first time i want to

and don't

and so help me god, if you're there...

i won't...

i've been in boise for a couple days now.

i love it

havn't done much or seen much, but i just feel so light in this town...

like i can finally be myself and i don't have to pretend to be him anymore...

i just decided...

that i don't know what i want

i found a job and a place to live...i'm on my way...

to a brand new life

it's been tooooooo long since i've done this...so hear goes!

the depression is gone!!!

that's right bitches! i'm a million times better in that regard...but i'm still

alone...

in this god-forsaken town

almost a month since the "i think i might have a plan, and i've been happier since i might have direction" post...

still no plan, and because i feel like i'm so close to having one, i'm depressed. like as depressed as i've ever been...

ammon, you're outta control...

get in control