You know, I'd like to say things are going well, but really, it's the same old same old. Job is frustratingly boring, people around here are just... not worth knowing. The one I cared so much about has seen fit to leave me by the wayside, deciding that the guy she was with on the side is a better fit for her then me... bah ( Read more... )

Just a simple update for any watching. I'm still alive.. I've found someone rather wonderful.. stunned that I did again, but now worried that it's going to be more of the same. I think my worry might be tinging the relationship a bit, but one can hope one can look past that. Anyways, still alive, still here, still plugging along.

Allright.. well.. It's been a really rough road lately, reasoning why I haven't posted in forever. Being dragged down to your ultimate low then getting kicked a few times, reorganizing things, swinging up to an incredibly high emotional peak, then back down, and back up again. Rough times but i'm thinking things have finally begun to even out ( Read more... )

She left me.. last night, just up and gone... "I don't think we should talk anymore"... I told her I wouldn't fight her if she said it was over. I told her that I wouldn't force the issue... but it hurts so bad at the moment.. I want to scream and cry and shout.. but I won't do any of the above.. I'll just sit here quietly with my little journal ( Read more... )

Enough with the melancholy here.. have you ever called someone and talked for hours, then couldn't stop smiling for hours afterwards? That's what my hun does for me.. We spent 6ish hours on the phone last night, talking about nothing in particular, jabbering away about our day and what not... god she makes me happy, she's so damn amazing and doesn ( Read more... )

One step at a time and all that. Not much to report lately, work and work.. and work. Kinda looking forward to heading back to classes in august, registration is going to be rough though, little to no finacial aid. I'll get by, allways do.

Well, back to using this journal... getting a handle on everything again.. and getting used to using the new journal. Glad to be back I suppose.

Well.... last night I got drug out to a bar by an old friend of mine, Craig, he and his fiance are in town till Sunday...(a short bit of explaining, but his fiance is Tonia, a girl that I dated for a long time, got very close to, and still care about far too much, even after our break, wich wasn't pretty) It's been ages since I went out, ages ( Read more... )

There are times that I'm happy to be alone, many times in fact.. I dislike people in general, they make me nervous, all their emotions clashing together, tearing into the center of your mind with all anger, hate, love, obsessions.... but then, there are times like now... Where you just wish you had someone to talk to, to sit and bullshit with... ( Read more... )

Right now.. I'm tweaked all to hell, trying to relax, twitching slightly, giggling for no reason, and thinking at a mile a minute. Sorry I have written in forever, but I haven't been home in ages. Yes, I'm alive, no, I'm not crying out for attention, and yes, i'm fucked all to hell :P anyways. Every just sit and think about every little thing ( Read more... )