Yah… tonight was our going away dinner for Robert.. =/ =[

How sad!

I’ve just been sad all day…

Its like everything has been good… life’s been grand… and then here we go again… its like it doesn’t matter how far along I get.. There’s always SOMETHING that pulls me back. And it’s all my fault. I know its not being done intentional and people aren’t ( Read more... )

today I was up @ 7am and i was w/ the boys by 8
I took Alec to a speech class... it was nice to go and see how the class is run
then we came home and we sat a the house for the day... I wanted to take them bowling lol but Traci’s taking them tomorrow... so? And they went another time this week so 2times is enough! lol
right from babysitting i went to ( Read more... )

He's the one good thing I've done in my life - I was good at loving him.

& it doesn't matter why her heart is broken.
Pain Is Pain

at one point i was so weak.
i miss you so much & i missed what we had.
one simple song made me break down & cry,
but now i can honestly say i'm over you.
sure, i still think about you,
but i'm not crying anymore.
i'm so strong ( Read more... )

I was thinking back on all the people I was once friends with that I am not anymore…

And man is there a lot!  And I have learned a ton from it

For starters… I let people in way to much. Yah that’s gotta come to a stop!

But there are people who I honestly owe a lot to. I am no longer friends with them for very GOOD REASONS! And I am glad but I am not ( Read more... )

stop falling.
you have enough bruises on that poor heart of yours.

I'm the smoke from your fire
I'm that lie you can trust
I'm the cord on your guitar
I'm that girl you can't shut up
I'm that blood you might need
In your car way in your speed
In that cigarette you breath
You can't get rid of me.

I don't believe I'll be alright
I don't believe I'll be ( Read more... )

Monday - I had my boys at 1

So I woke up late… got ready and then went right over there had them till 7 then my and krystina went to platoes and I got 3 new pairs of jeans and a Hollister hoody all for 50$ so I was exccccccccited! Then we went and say w/ leelee for a while! :-D man I love that woman! ;) She’s one of us I swear it!

After that Mac and ( Read more... )

have you ever been in love?
horrible, isn't it?
it makes you so vulnerable.
it opens your chest & it opens your heart
& builds up all these defenses.
you build up this whole armor,
for years, so nothing can hurt you.
then, one stupid person,
no different from any other stupid person,
wanders into your stupid life.
you give them a piece of you.
they don't ask ( Read more... )

I'd rather just

live for the moment.
Not worry about who

has said what about who.
And to never

second guess

the choices I make
I truely believe

that regret is the worst feeling,
so I'm going to live

Without it.

There she stood,

a boys arm around her 
and friends surrounding her.
The smile plastered on her face was fake. 
She was just looking for someone to ( Read more... )

Wednesday throu my weekend… =]

So I was going to hang out w/ Karl the last I updated… and no shocker… we didn’t end up chilling

Wednesday night I drove out w/ Garrett’s and hung w/ him and Tiffany for a while then we took her home watched some TV and went to sleep….

Thursday -

We got up and went over to Andrea’s to paint =]

It was a lot of fun… my ( Read more... )

So0... today… I had my boys! =D
Haven’t seen them since the Friday before xmas so I was more then excited to see and play with them
<3 I honestly have no idea where I would be w/out them little guys! :-P
We went to the library on 19 and Romeo plank… MMMM BIGGEST LIBRARY I have EVER seen in my life.. I gotta card! Lmao it was actually kinda cool… ya ( Read more... )