i feel lost, and very detatched....i dont know what i want, and i dont know why im holding on to nothing, something thats been nothing for a long time...i just dont know ne more

ok so im sitting in heritage and im trying to think...im trying to think very hard, about my relationship with james, as are relationship progresses, i feel like were growing apart. i really dont know what he ants from me any more, he really upset me the other night, he did something that if i ever did, i would hear about it for months, and he ( Read more... )

i dont get people, and i hate people who are not loyal, or pretend that there always doing something to try and make themseves look important. i used to have a best friend just like that, but she decided to pick some ass whole over me, and then sat there and claimed that i was picking james over her (didnt happen) people like that just aggrevate ( Read more... )

I CANT FUCKING TAKE THIS ANY MORE!

It isn’t un-normal for me to get my way, and I think that’s what my problem is, I like you so much, and that doesn’t phase you at all, you dint want to say your using me, because we both know that you’re a better person then that, but you are seriously screwing with my head, if the only reason that your staying with me is for my own safety then ( Read more... )

So I’ve been thinking (yes I do, do that on occasion) maybe its better off like this, at least for now, maybe we both need to grow up a little, find our selves, and find out what we want in life. we will always be apart of each other, but that’s pretty much a given. you saying that we will eventually get back together is arbitrary, because we ( Read more... )

The choices that I choice to make are always very regrettable ones. I’m not perfect…in no means will I ever be perfect, but the one that I let go was pretty close to it. The thought of it is killing me, I can feel my insides deteriorating. And it’s not like no one has ever died of a broken heart, and if they haven’t, well there’s a first for ( Read more... )

I hate that I still love him, and that his idealistic relationship with me is the “just friends” kind. I know that I hurt him, actually I know that I hurt him a lot, I know that he likes her, and I know that he has every right to try and move on, and i cant blame him, because I would do the same thing. All I want is for him to give me just one ( Read more... )

i hate how all guys are the same....its complete bullshit, im NEVER EVER good enough for ne of them....you got what u wanted and now your never going to talk to me again? what happened to you being the nice one who would stick around..you got soo pissed when he treated me like bullshit, and you said i didnt deserve it, and your right, i didnt.... ( Read more... )

I like being alone, its probably the one thing that I REALLY TRULLY need. It’s like my drug, loneliness is my drug, not depending on people and not sitting there watching people hurt me is the best thing in the world. If your alone you do not have to love, and love is probably the biggest oxymoron out there, it makes you feel so great but the it ( Read more... )