i feel like i'm clinging to something that i already know is going nowhere. am i just wasting my time? if i knew i was, would i really do anything about it?
i rarely leave my room when i'm at home now because i have a laptop. also, the amount of homework that i left to last minute is ridiculous. i'm really just not motivated to do anymore schoolwork though.
i put all my trust in you. after i had promised myself i wouldn't put myself through this again. and this time, it's hurts even more. you were the one who convinced me that you would be different. how could you do this to me?