Lights out ( Read more... )

i feel the thunder
rumbling through my viens
the world is telling me
somethings going to change.

the lightning flashes
in my eyes i see
everything, and nothing
all i want to be.

Last night was our date night. we needed it so bad. i love that when things are all wrong and we take time out for each other, everything turns around and i couldn't feel more in love.

its been almost 2 years. and apparently i have no friends anymore.. or no one uses LJ anymore. i'm sure its the latter....
its been almost 2 years. life is easier. life is harder.
its been almost 2 years. i am happy, and i am sad.
its been almost 2 years. i've let go, and i'm holding on.
its been almost 2 years.

do you find that it is hard to be settled?  like you've changed and the people around you haven't. they remind you of the days when life was so carefree, but being settled, thats all changed now. not only do you have to worry about yourself, you worry about your significant other. are they happy, whats going through their mind, is everything okay ( Read more... )

its funny how the past can just creep up on you. i thought i was over everything that has happened to me. well i guess not. i had this crazy dream the other night. and now i can't seem to get the past out of my head/heart. i feel like all i can do is just get a hold of my past to help me figure out my future. sometimes i wish the past would stay ( Read more... )

all of this nonsense is starting to get me so stressed out! i don't know how much longer i can take the trend of school and work colliding. no breaks, no days off. if i don't have to go to work, i have to go to school, and vice versa. i need a vacation. i've already said something to my scheduling manager, but i know nothing is going to change. ( Read more... )

and its at this point
where everyone i have ever known,
come to love and respect
is no longer with me.
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this is harder than i thought. strapped for cash, and two more weeks to find and move into an apartment. i've been looking hard, but damn it all, i need money for this. never in my life would i have thought that i would be using savings bonds at a young 20. its coming down to that. i wish i could feel more confident in asking my parents for a loan ( Read more... )

and the big news is...

i'm moving to Kalamazoo on Tuesday, aug. 2nd

Bye-Bye Jackson.