i'm sorry. i've been really self centered lately. i have problems. i dunno how to deal with them. i can't seem to get over things i should've gotten over years ago. it's pathetic. i dunno why i play into it. my mind is a mess. and when i try i just make myself feel worse. but thats not an excuse. i take a lot of things for granted. like my beatiful ( Read more... )

exchanging two hundred - the early november ( Read more... )

ok so i'm on the phone with my girlfriend right now and i think she's really mad at me cuz she's not talking to me, and just keeps saying she's really bored. i think she's just mad at me. i suck at life yay!

why am i always so jealous. why can't i ever be happy. why? cuz i can't compete. i'm a loser. that's my job. to lose. when will i stop losing. when will i stop losing myself?

i wish i was more confident ( Read more... )

i swore i wouldn't use this thing anymore but oh well. the past couple days have been really stressful for me and i've been trying to take it in stride. it's finally all sinking in i guess. i'm so lost right now. i dunno where to go from here. i dunno where i wanna go. i try being so confident, and i fail miserably at it. i lost my way. i want to ( Read more... )

bleh i'm home sick right now and it sucks. i'm bored and sick of laying down so i decided that maybe an lj update is just what the doctor ordered. so things have been going alright lately. i'm finally getting my college stuff done that's always a good thing. friday me and karen went to the show in belleville. it didn't expect it to be that good. ( Read more... )

hey kids, wut up. nothing much here. i just wanted to let everyone know that i got a new screen name. it's THEG0DAWFULTRUTH the 0 is a zero just incase anyone gets confused. so yea add it to your buddy list and say hi especially if i haven't talked to you for a while. and on a final note karen mueller is the most amazing girlfriend ever<3. thank ( Read more... )

so 2004 is over. i'm pretty indifferent to new years. i've never liked it that much. this year new years was cool cuz i had someone to kiss when the ball dropped. but overall 2004 wasn't bad, i did some cool shit but it had a lot of drama 2. i made a lot of friends. i lost a lot of friends. theres somethings i miss but i'm getting along well with ( Read more... )

i saw my chemical romance for the 5th time last night. and it was fucking amazing.