i woke up SICK today. and by sick, i mean FLU sick.
but i still had to go to the dentist.

i had a FUCKING ROOT CANALmisery. MISERY, i must say ( Read more... )

( this is getting awfully tiresome.... )

way too much fucking stress.
i am completely and utterly exhausted.

working full-time and being a full-time student at the same time ALL FUCKING SUMMER, is completely MISERABLEi have no time for anything ( Read more... )

everyone pretty much always forgets my birthday.
its okay though. i don't really mind.

truth is, this year i'd like to forget all about it as well.

i am INSANELY fucking stressed out right now.

so.

im guess im pretty much stuck going to this family reunion-esque gathering.// i.e. a shitload of mexicans (most of which i've never met before in my entire life) crammed together in one place for 4 fucking days ( Read more... )

he's going to sleep with her tomorrow night.
i know it.
because i know him.

and its fucking killing me.

yeah...i still love him.

i finally got a couple days off.
so im flying up to seattle.
and then going to canada for a bit too.

i really hope its a somewhat enjoyable couple of days.
i know that i dont deserve that.
but it would still be nice.

i got a damn early flight, so i have to go pack.

p.s. i'm sorry for being an asshole lately. im just in a bad place.

i know that i brought this all on myself. i know that i deserve this. i'd do anything not to be this way. i'd do anything to make it up to everyone...i just wish that god...or my sister or someone would just tell me what's wrong with me. just tell me how to be different in a way that makes sense. to make this all go away. and disappear. i know that ( Read more... )

im about to go to a really good concert.

good times, good times.