i dont know what im doing. or where im going.

hell, i might be living in an apartment soon. working. and for the first time, doing things my way. dont get me wrong, i wouldnt mind going back to lu at all. but im not going to stress if thigs dont go my way. because i will just have to make them go my way.

so much stuff has gone down lately. and even though i have been spending time with friends, i feel very much alone. no one can help me. and if they could, i dont think they would. because id be asking too much, im sure.

i have never been this upset about drugs. people do them, and its whatever. but just know, that i have never been this torn up inside about something that has never bothered me ( Read more... )

been hanging out with people from work. its been loads of fun. no. really. you cant understand how much fun i have with them ( Read more... )

i thought that all i had to do was clean up this broken glass. but then i tasted blood. and felt the gap in my lip with my tongue. and i knew that something was wrong. of course, all i heard from matt was, 'you'll be fine, you dont need stitches.' so of course, just the opposite had to be true. so i sat with my head between my knees in the yard for ( Read more... )

i try to post. but i can never manage to write down anything that closely resembles a post. we'll see how far i get this time.

i tried to watch one of my favorite movies tonight and i tried to focus ( Read more... )

i have a feeling. that every day lasts for three. and my heart never decides to slow down until the rest of my body does.

go ahead. do it. and i hope that when you do, im unarmed. so you feel better about how you killed me. maybe it will give you more confidence when you see what youve done. and when she screams at you to stop. dont stop. because for some reason, you want this. you want to see me go down. maybe because of the way i ripped the keys from her hand. maybe ( Read more... )

i am the best boyfriend youve ever had. and if you disagree, youre dead wrong ( Read more... )

i didnt like today. i worked. and ate for free at work. thats about it.

hopefully, things will get a little more lively tonight at a-six.

victorias at the lake. and i work a double tomorrow. money money money.

im tired.