Today marks the first time in nearly a year of being with bobby and 6 months of long distance that I'm feeling anxiety about our relationship. He came to visit me this weekend and it started off badly. When he was on his way out here (on Thursday) we got in a fight because I got off the phone with him to talk to a friend I hadn't seen in a while. ( Read more... )

I'm in santa maria for the week. anyone up for coffee etc.?

I'm so so used to being the center of bobby's world, with all the love and attention i want (and i usually want a lot). He makes me so fucking happy its stupid, I think about him and everything goes pastel and glittery, people must notice ( Read more... )

I feel kinda guilty about wasting the first half of my winter break with sleeping really really late and sitting on the couch, because now people are calling, saying 'lets hang out!' The problem with this is that i'm going to Oregon on the 27th for the remaining week of break ( Read more... )

Notmyguy has a new girl, it appears, and God dammit it makes me crazy. I mean, its pretty disgusting that I care at all, or at least this much, in this way. Despicable, it really is. So much so that I can't talk about it with anyone. Which makes it all the much worse ( Read more... )

i'm dieing ( Read more... )

yesterday, i opened up livejournal and read my entries back to atleast the summer before last ( Read more... )

I like liking someone. A lot. That feeling you get when you see that person, when you talk to that person, when you are held by that person... it's unexplainable, and irreplacable ( Read more... )

"Read or unread just being is good enough. It may sound crazy, but when I write these passages, maybe a hundred or two hundred people reply, maybe a thousand or two thousand people read them, but maybe in some other way they stretch their wordy arms out into this big sky and rain down like all your prayers did on me when I was too sick to open my ( Read more... )

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