I watched Speak tonight on Lifetime (go figure ( Read more... )

There's nothing left for me to figure out ( Read more... )

Some days I get that old sinking feeling, and everything tries to go wrong ( Read more... )

Detectives tomorrow morning at 7:30. I may curl up and sleep after that. Probably not, though.
Everyone be super happy and hyper tomorrow at school, ok? Thanks.

Way to be cool, nerves. Way to be cool.

Yay for myspace songs.

I'm beginning to feel like everyday a little bit more of me dies.

This week has sucked. Hard.
Mom and Todd and phone and grandparents and car accident on wednesday morning and more Todd and more mom and dad and theater and grades and tests and ahhh... it's been bad.
So I allowed myself one week to wallow and be miserable.

The week is up. Time to get back into the swing of things. :)

...what you were saying echoed so much hurt and lost feelings...

...Things about not feeling loved, wanted, or secure. How you never wanted anyone to be like you. How you could never change. How no one wanted you. It was heartbreaking.

I still can't believe I said all of that.
What makes it worse is that I'm not sure of everything I told her.
Am I ( Read more... )

Spurned on by my character's bitchy/blah mood, I have decided it's time that I address a few things. My therapist continues to tell me that hiding my thoughts and feelings is not a good thing- and I found it kind of funny that today I finally realized I've been using Tracey as a means of getting out my own experiences without actually saying that I ( Read more... )

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I'm warning every single one of the people I have added as a friend now: This journal will be mopey, miserable, and downright pathetic for a while. I'm currently hitting another low and I'm trying to work through it as best I can, and I figured 'what better way than writing?'. So yes. I shall be putting things behind lj-cuts if you're the type that ( Read more... )