so lets see...whats today. October. Time goes by way to fast. I really should start writing in this thing more often. Kinda a predicter to my future so i can recall my feelings and my gut instincts. Right now Zach and I are together. We have been offical for like a little over a month now things are pretty good. Cant complain...I am just putting ( Read more... )

Almost a month later from my last post and I feel exactly the same. I cant keep living like this, its not normal. It's making me sick to my stomach to think about what he may be doing, who hes with or if he has moved on. This kid has no idea how much I love him or what hes doing to me. literally killing my soul. Maybe I need to be the aggressor ( Read more... )

I am so sad, lonely, upset, confused and in love.

My life is perfect. i have nothing to complain about.

Except, I love mike and he doesn't want me.

What am I going to do without him?

I am falling apart.

i miss dan. :(
hes the only one who matters and hes in Florida forever

im sorry im not pretty enough to be "your girl ( Read more... )

So here it is already November 4th i cant believe it ( Read more... )

i'm tugging at my hair
i'm pulling at my clothes
i'm trying to keep my cool
i know it shows
i'm staring at my feet
my cheeks are turning red
i'm searching for the words inside my head
i'm feeling nervous
trying to be so perfect
cause i know
youre worth it

So i dont want to be pretty anymore ( Read more... )

i'm just your regular beauty queen ( Read more... )

some days are easier then others ( Read more... )