I don't know anymore... but it seemed as if I killed one of us. I know I didn't, but it just seemed that way. All that shit seems to hit you harder once you've done something in your life that you'll regret. And it sucks big time. I hate feeling this way, but I can't help it ( Read more... )

The Malboro Infestation....

Just led to all kinds of calamity. First, Rinoa isn't found anywhere...

Then, Zell becomes unconscious. I could have moved him out of the way, but didn't... he was right next to me. Right fucking next to me...

And it's all my fucking fault...

I've been trying to keep myself busy lately. And yes, that does "include" "applying" myself to the Aeronautics class. I swear, if Instructor Highwind yells at "me" "one more time"... I'm going to burst. I've been trying. What else does his freaking ass want? I am not about to return to the mind-state that I'm not good enough for everyone, ( Read more... )

It's just one of those days again ( Read more... )

Not much happened. Though the bleach-head blondie teacher was in a really grumpy mood today. No wonder... he was talking about Seph on his LJ. So they came from the same world, huh? Destroying their world? Heh... I find that too hard to believe, especially knowing the way he is now. By the way their conversation was going, seemed like ( Read more... )

I felt a bit restless yesterday after ignoring that old bleach-head blondie in class. After that, I decided to go back to my dorm and study for my stupid Algebra exam. It sucks. I'm barely starting to figure out what all the x's and y's and a's and b's mean. Angel, thanks so much. You've been a lot of help. Math is just not my thing. It ( Read more... )

I was awoken by Rikku at around 6:45. The girl has good timing. I was also surprised that Raijin wasn't there when I woke up. Somethings definitely going on with Raijin, and I don't like it one bit. You all know how much I hate being left out in the dark ( Read more... )

Before I head off to bed, I just wanted to reinterate that I had a pretty good day ( Read more... )

Damn... it's been awhile since I wrote in this journal. Got too busy, I guess. While Fujin was away to Esthar for awhile, I'm glad that everything here in Garden has been somewhat calm. Sure l'll get some dumbass every now and then but it's nothing out of the ordinary ( Read more... )

To be honest with you, I was glad that sis Ellone was able to make it out here. I never realized how bad of a jerk I was. Not just to Zell, but in general. Damn that... makes me wish that someone can shove my Hyperion up my own ass. But hey, I was a little kid. I didn't know any better. But... going back into the past like that, a lot of that ( Read more... )