Financial trouble. . . I am beginning to wonder if I really will be okay? My budget seems fairly impossibly tight. YIKES! Maybe I could sell some of my stuff and buy food on my credit card for a little while. LOL. This is going to be so exciting. I think no matter what happens it is going to be fun!

I seem to be okay today. I have been getting some excellent writing done. I reread some favorite parts from one of my books. I even went to the tanning salon. Of course I got to talk on the phone with one of my favorite friends all day. The rain has been making me feel romantic, and my skin feels all hot and sexy. I don't know what is going ( Read more... )

If anyone could come stay with me for awhile that would be really good. I am really freaking out here. I don't know how to be this alone. I have plenty of space. I really need someone.

I am VERY VERY upset right now. I am so angry. So very angry. I think I am going to have to go out for awhile. This is the lowest Arian has gone. I didn't think it would come down to this. I feel dirty, and disgusting, and I am so offended. If there was ever any question, I do not like being treated like a whore, and don't ever presume ( Read more... )

I have no choices. I can try and change who I am, or I can be essentially homeless. It's no longer okay with arian for me to stay here. I don't think I can be the person he wants me to be. I like my job, I like my life. I have no good options. He wants to kick me out. There is nothing here for me in Delaware except my job. Without the job I ( Read more... )

I ate rice cakes and drank vitamin water on the day my marriage ended, and I painted a picture. This is my first finger painting. I have Jen to thank for the idea. The blue represents arian, and the red future possibilities. The ring is arian's wedding ring.

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I guess I am getting divorced this week. Apparently you can do that online these days. LOL.

Somebody tell me I'll be okay.

Arian woke me up this morning screaming about how he wants a divorce. What an interesting saturday this is turning out to be. If he lets me keep the apartment maybe it will be okay. I don't think I could afford to run the heat, or pay utilities, but I supose I would be okay. Maybe I could get a roommate. Maybe he'll change his mind. Two weeks ( Read more... )

I've been in a very good mood all day. I even finally got some new pieces done. I have a little series of three Lady of the Lake images. I'll put the other ones in behind. I'd be interested to know which one out of three people like the most.

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