well I am awake! Why isn't everyone else? It's noon time dammit. Aren't there rules about adults being up at noon? It's too hot to wear anything but the slutiest of clothes today. I had better shave my legs and clean up ( Read more... )

I have such a headache I feel like I am going to vomit. Today is arian and my four year anniversary. Well the four year anniversary of when he decided to go back out with me. Our original anniversary was valentines day 1997. Followed by him dumping me in October of 1997. I'm almost not bitter at all anymore, I swear ( Read more... )

I can't stop myself from reading that story about plant sex. It is called Petition of Legacy, and I think it is truly wonderful erotica. It plays out all of my most popular fantasies. If anyone is interested, here is the url ( Read more... )

I am off to Maine this weekend. I can't wait. Marie is one of my absolute favorite people in the world, and spending time with her is always fulfilling. Of course I will miss my internet access, but it is only three days. I still have to do some laundry and dig out some of the sweaters I already packed away. I hear the weather in Maine is ( Read more... )

"I have to commend you on your ability to have a bizarre sexual deviance that can't even be found on the internet."

I am trying to get some writng done tonight. I've been being dishonest in the memoir novel. I think if I confess a little more, then there will actually be some sort of cohesive story line underneath of it ( Read more... )

Thank you for your interest in the Beautiful Dreams Company. I regret to say that my time is more divided than ever at the moment and, on top of that, the site is getting more traffic than ever before. Consequently, my inbox is overflowing with email that I just do not have the time to get to right away. I assure you that I will respond in what ( Read more... )

Today was a fucked up day. I locked myself out of the house this morning in the pouring rain. I call Arian to tell him to come home and unlock the door, but he has just gotten in a car accident. His car is mostly totaled and he is sitting on the side of the road. So using a trunk, picnic table bench, and our kitchen table, I manage to break ( Read more... )

Boys are coming tomorrow. Arian's friends. They'll smoke and drink in the basement, and Cocci will want to do shots. They'll talk art, but not with me. I get no attention about my art. They only look at Arian's work and talk movies. Are they afraid of me? Is my work so bad that no one dares comment on it? Of course this will make me sad, ( Read more... )

I am off to get my hair cut. I have just enough time to shove something random from the fridge into my mouth and head out the door. Arian has boys coming over this weekend, and I don't want everyone to think that I have started to let myself go. I have been working on an illustration this week. Big progress, surely my best one yet. I'll post ( Read more... )