i've been isolating myself from the world a lot lately. i just feel like i don't have time for anyone, but i have all the time in the world. like i can't be bothered, but i have nothing better to do. i get annoyed so easily. i can't stand most of the the people that come near me lately. i wana scream so fucking loud.. make everyone deaf.. make them ( Read more... )

.....i had the most awful dream last night.....

(i need you to say goodbye- even in my dreams..
cuz it still hurts to have u in my mind)

"once again, in self defense i wont sleep a wink.. to prevent dreaming of you"

"sleep away, a silent pain, screaming out my name ( Read more... )

"hope life's been good to you
since you've been gone
i'm doing fine now, i've finally moved on
it's not so bad, i'm not that sad

i'm not surprised just how well i survived
i'm over the worst, and i feel so alive
i can't complain i'm free again.

and it only hurts when i'm breathing
my heart only breaks when it's beating
my dreams only die when i'm dreaming
so ( Read more... )

stolen from likesbubblewrap <33

FIRSTS
First job: working in my grandma's office answering phones. lol. oh, and babysitting
First screen name: jeni816
First funeral: GG Mary
First pet: sandy, my kitty =( she died a few years ago =( she was pretty old lol)
First piercing: ears
First kiss: matt :-p
First enemy: hmm, i dunno about ENEMY.. but the first person i EVER got ( Read more... )

he makes me feel like i don't belong anywhere. like i'm not worthy of breathing his air.. like no matter how wrong he is, he's still right. and what am i supposed to do, when no one's on my side?.. when i'm screaming my head off and people are walking by.. and he makes them just walk by like that. he makes me crazy. i just need to get away from ( Read more... )

think i need a change in hairstyle. i dunno, i'm getting pretty bored of my hair. i duno what to do with it.... dye? highlights? cut? grow? bangs? ugh.. but i dont wana look stupid.. lol..i'll post pics.. u post ideas.

( this should be interesting..... )

my love, nothing was ever real with us. i convinced myself so hard, cuz i wanted to believe so bad.. now my eyes are wide open and those gates are closed. darling, i could have died for your words.. now i just feel dead cause i believed them.  and remembering us, hurts so much- because i couldn't see anything past your gorgeous eyes. i never ( Read more... )

that one word brings me to tears.. i can't even speak it without feeling that lump in my throat.. i hesitate to say it, but when i finally gain courage, i get chills all down my spine... the cancer that tears apart his family. god, it even hurts to type it. and when i saw him the other day, at crissy's communion party.. i'll never forget that. it ( Read more... )

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