this weather i hoped would of brought brillance upon myself. i feel trapped within x box which has stolen so many conversations and love. this week of house sitting has cut many strings that have kept alot of mouths shut. i am glad to know that a friendship can now start over again. with each drink, with each shot i distance myself away from you ( Read more... )

these days have been good ( Read more... )

i decided i am sick of all the people i associate myself with these days. excluding only a couple people. they are all full of bull shit and drama within themselves. they all could care less about you. so dont lie. i hate what they say and what they wish i would say to them. i cant be nice to fake people anymore. good job everyone to make me think ( Read more... )

i really need to change my attitude. i am happy but i like to hide it. it scares me that you DO know me better than i know myself. cause you bring up things that i was really feeling but never really thought that that was the problem. i love you. i really do. and i think that i will love you more if i was more myself. and i cant keep on relying on ( Read more... )

so i got bitched out today by some mother who CUT me off on some road in clarkston. she was saying all these crazy things like, "i got a baby in here." (isnt that why mom's have the sign that says baby on board. she should of had one so i would of known) and "i am going to fuck you up." and she called me a cunt. she is the one that shouldnt be ( Read more... )

i have these dreams of pain, excitement, awkwardness for a reason...i will write ( Read more... )

i am so utterly over halo.
i hate that i am so stubborn.
blah. blah.
i feel like we meet only in favors.
i hate BLIZZARDS!
we are finnaly going to see a movie.
i am so excited for one tree hill.
details dont matter to you.
love has been described in so many ways, twice.
my eyes shut.

i leave secretly crying not knowing quite what all the tears are for. i am so confused these days with life in general. and these thoughts of mine are harassing me and poking fun of all i have to give. which isnt that much and i am not sure if you enjoy it all. i want things to be perfect but when i realize that they are not and they never ever ( Read more... )

your so fucking rude to me. honestly i am the one person you love the most and well you are a dick to me and no one else. that is the one thing that i hate about you.

i realize i have nothing but you. and laying in bed with you i didnt hate it anymore.

there are many things i have been trying to figure out on my own lately. nothing seems true cause there are always lies and coverups. people will remain people even without emotion (even that is rare).

nobody really ever listens.