So I'm still in RI. I haven't gone anywhere and it doesn't seem like I will be anytime soon. I'm kinda dealing with it better now. It's June 10th today which is kinda the middle of June which means there's only a little over a month before Ethan's birthday and I'm going down to his house for that. Other than that trip I don't know for sure that I ( Read more... )

I don't really know how to begin this cuz it's not about just one thing. I'm unhappy. I've always been unhappy about something and now it's at the point where if I don't do something about it now I could become clinically depressed. And I have no reason to be unhappy ( Read more... )

well, this school year is finishing up and finally everything's starting to happen. I feel like I finally have things right. I have the greatest boyfriend, good friends that listen, and the blueprints for what I've been missing. I'm so happy right now.... ahhh

soo this is what's up. Today is April 6th which means many things. for starters, it's me and Ethan's 5 month anniversary and even though we are so comfortable with each other and I can't imagine my life right now without him, it still surprises me that I've had a boyfriend for 5 consecutive months of my life. wow. what else is April 6th? well, ( Read more... )

So I'm thinking, and I'm thinking I'm confused. I don't know what I want to do with myself and I feel lonely a lot. I obsess about Ethan because he is the only person I feel completely and totally myself with. I love Madison, but we're too different for her to really get me.. for me to truly confide in her. I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I WANT TO DO FOR THE ( Read more... )

How I'm going to die quiz:

Suicide

87%
Bomb

60%
Posion

60%
Gunshot

40%
Eaten

33%
Suffocated

33%
Drowning

20%
Disease

13%
Cut Throat

13%
Dissapear

0%
Stabbed

0%
Accident

0%
Electric Chair

0%

should I just give it up now?

Things between me and Ethan have changed. I feel like there's no spark left between us and he doesn't get excited to see me like he used to. I feel bad even complaining about him because in so many ways he is perfect and wonderful and I really do love him. I just feel like we're settled now. Like he doesn't feel like he has to do special things for ( Read more... )

So here is what my life is right now: Exams are next week. I have 2 and there both on wednesday and I'm not ready for either. I need to study. Also, Valentines Day is Monday and I think Ethan and Mike are doing something together for me and Madison. Very cute, I'm excited. Shit, this refers to the guys in Ethan's frat and what they give us. Ethan's ( Read more... )

aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! he doesn't understand me, he lives in his ow world and I just tag along. he's gonna realize I'm not what he thinks I am. FUCK! why am I doing this to myself?

ooo boy, I am so lost. I have forgotten who I am. My heart is open and vulnerable but I know it this time. Everything is a competition for me. why do I feel so alone?