Under A Juniper Tree

Sep 06, 2009 15:16

SUMMARY: amyhit suggested "Five Times Scully Scares Mulder." I started writing the fic, but this was the only segment of it that came out how I wanted. It's a touch longer than a drabble. Both the title of the story and the mantra of Scully's roommate come from T.S. Eliot's Ash Wednesday. Thanks  to scarletbaldy for looking this over on vacation.

He's learning to navigate the jagged rocks of her coastline. )

emily, angst, fanfic:xf

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amyhit September 8 2009, 03:19:15 UTC
oh yes, this, this is exactly what i had in mind. and i see it as being enormously in character, which is just an added bonus with your writing, which i always admire and enjoy, but don't always identify with directly. this time, i do.

your scully - gah - she is so beyond my ability to articulate. also, while very few writers can manage a limited omniscient POV well, you manage like a pro, jumping from the deep nervous fear of mulder's mind:

The flatness of her affect chews at him, seeming more like scar tissue than a healing wound. She is turning into a chilly white thing he doesn't like to look at.

and his poetic tenderness (god i love this line):

Her hair escapes the elastic band, bouncing behind her, and he remembers when she used to wear it long around her girlish face, chasing nightmares through the woods.

to scully's desperate - often horrifying - stoicism:

with infinite care, cut the fragile blue-lipped creature to pieces. She'd printed the chubby fingers, zipped the bag back up, and carried the small bundle to the ( ... )

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aloysiavirgata September 8 2009, 19:30:54 UTC
*swoon*

Oh, you dear, dear lady. Thank you for this lovely feedback!

oh yes, this, this is exactly what i had in mind. and i see it as being enormously in character, which is just an added bonus with your writing, which i always admire and enjoy, but don't always identify with directly. this time, i do.

My relief at this is palpable. There were so many places to go with the prompt and none of the other scenes I jotted down felt right at all. Interestingly, I don't always identify with my writing either.

the way you manage to write the full scope of scully's character is remarkable. she is so tucked and folded and fortified that it can seem she is not a sexual being, and even that she was never younger than she is now - almost that she doesn't exist outside of the moment. you write her with the superior fullness of a person, yet manage not to lose the sense of her honed relentlessness - the immediacy of her.You couldn't have said anything to make me happier, truly. I love them both and I don't think of myself as a Scullyist, but ( ... )

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amalnahurriyeh September 8 2009, 16:28:45 UTC
This is beautifully done. The language is gorgeous, and the characterization is just spot-on. God, your Mulder is so...wrong about everything. Excuse me while I choke him. Anyway.

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aloysiavirgata September 8 2009, 19:33:00 UTC
Thank you so much. You're one of those people whose feedback always gives me a little thrill because I just love your writing so much. I spend a lot of time wanting to choke both of my characters, really. Sigh.

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colebaltblue September 19 2009, 05:44:38 UTC
this is so heartbreaking. i think you did an excellent job capturing them and their anguish as well as Scully's own way of dealing with it all. thank you!

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aloysiavirgata September 20 2009, 14:45:28 UTC
Thank you so much! I really enjoyed writing it, even though that whole storyline just makes me heart hurt.

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scooly42 November 22 2009, 21:52:50 UTC
OW. OW.
how i came i never read this before? did i really stop checking my flist as early as september? ANYWAY. this was beautiful, and sad, and beautiful, and oh man, write more soon, kthx.

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aloysiavirgata November 23 2009, 12:02:55 UTC
Thank you so much for the feedback. The whole Emily thing has really bothered me since I came back to the fandom a couple of years ago,and I just couldn't get over how she just acted as though it never happened. It was so creepy.

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scooly42 November 24 2009, 20:34:57 UTC
man, I KNOW: creepy like hell. it always bothered me, too. i mean her grief was obviously intense but she buried it, closed it inside her, hid it so deep it wasn't visible; except for 'all souls' she was always like she'd convinced herself it never happened. maybe she was like 'how am i ever supposed to talk about this to anyone; how would i ever explain it. it's all too weird. i don't understand it all myself.' you know, because of all the abduction/harvested ova/alien hybryd stuff. i can understand that ( ... )

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aloysiavirgata November 25 2009, 01:03:17 UTC
If you are bitter, you are justified. I know this because I too am bitter. WTF CHRIS CARTER.

WTF.

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