like borges, sans magic, poetry, sans unquestionable tragic beauty, i have been unforgivably guilty of having not been happy. i've not really penned the why or thought out the how. it's just happened. i have allowed it to happen.
i have a recurring thought--every time i close my eyes, every time for a year now--in that moment between flutter of ( Read more... )

in case you need further proof that i'm an idiot:
i got the following email from my current "boss." slightly altered, it read:

Allison ( Read more... )

i'm fairly certain the past two weeks have been the final, end-all proof that i am the world's worst judge of character.
i.am.a.sucker.
this is probably not news to anyone but myself, and even then it's not like it never occurred to me before.
but damn. damn.
live and learn? or, in my case, live and keep making the same stupid mistake over and over ( Read more... )

today the presbyterians have invited me for ice cream. i'm supposed to tell them about the shelter. the baptists give me lots of money. the ( Read more... )

i walk to the post office every morning to pick up the office mail. today i went in my pajamas ( Read more... )

once there was a guy who was one of my very best friends ( Read more... )

slowly slipping from an all-encompassing, two month long fog of work-around-the-clock, feeling completely disoriented and clueless as to how i'll ever find my place in the real world again. or maybe i just left it. maybe this is the dream, the space in between, moments when i step back from it all. ever want to simply dream forever?
sometimes it ( Read more... )

i worked 24hrs and 56 minutes over the weekend.

is this normal?

confession of the day, familiar to my brain and strange to my lips, fingertips ( Read more... )

why (THE *#%!) is it always so (*%#!ING) necessary to have a damn lets-all-hold-hands-and-sit-indian-style-on-the-big-blue-rug-and-have-personal-share-time-so-i-can-listen-to-yet-another-self-pity-infused-pathetic-story-from-everyone's-piece-of-*%!#-life moment at every conference i have to go to???

JEEEEEEEEZUS ( Read more... )