Yesod.  In the Qabala, Yesod is the Ninth Sphere, the “Foundation.”  It is the sphere closest to physical manifestation (the tenth sphere, Malkuth) and the one most easily reached by humans.  It is the sphere of dreams, of images, of the Moon.  Yesod’s energies seem to be at work in my life right now.
( Yesod )

I miss writing in a public journal ( Read more... )

I am in a writing mood tonight. Or, at the very least, I am feeling a need to be productive tonight. I haven’t written for personal reasons in a while now (since late-February or early-March, I believe, when I was in the throes of thesis and graduation panic), but it feels like a decent time to resurrect this old LiveJournal, though. At the very ( Read more... )

*I apologize in advance for the lack of LJ-tags. It has been almost two years since my last post and in the interim LJ-posting has changed and I have forgotten how to manually insert the HTML code for tag. If you read this, please respond. I haven't heard from many of you in quite a while. I've missed you. And don't pay too much attention to ( Read more... )

Today was rather disheartening, wasn’t it? The weather made me wish that I could curl up in a blanket and sleep the day away. Unfortunately, it was not to be. I had homework to do, a philosophy paper to write, a thesis chapter to finish, and a conference paper to practice delivering. Such a long day ( Read more... )

I am in a remarkably good mood ( Read more... )

My panicky tendencies tried to reassert themselves this evening. I was able to talk myself down, but that gut instinct to panic and stress myself out over every little thing is still there. It probably always will be. It’s sobering to realize that I’m going to be fighting these tendencies for the rest of my life. I’m developing ways to ( Read more... )

I feel inexplicably sad right now. And a bit anxious, even though, once again, it is unwarranted. Perhaps I’m just tired. I haven’t slept as much the past two nights as I’ve become accustomed to ( Read more... )

My latest grad school crisis has passed, once again, without any casualties. I got the "missing" (ie. lost) materials to the graduate coordinator this morning and I am still in the running for FSU's $18,000 University Fellowship. In her defense, she did look far more relieved to receive than the materials than I was to hand them in (which I ( Read more... )

And so, that Advanced Shakespeare test that I thought I did horribly on? I ended up getting a 100 (one of two out of 88 students). I'm sorry for whining about that test. I know that I have this tendency to overdramatize my insecurities. My Dad said it best Tuesday night after I had taken the test, "Brian, quit worrying. You always do this and ( Read more... )