it's 3:15 in the morning.
and the triangle is up

to everyone who has helped me calm down. I'm really scared but i know i will be ok. thank you. ill be leaving here at 630ish and hopefully returning before 6. i'll update when i get back. sigh i need to calm down

Songs ( Read more... )

I have not written any sort of blog in quiet awhile. It isn't good for me to to not write things so i've decided to keep a blog either here or on my xanga ( Read more... )

i really need somewhere to post whats in my head or else it all builds up. this helps with the whole me opening up to people thing because its easier to just write this in general then to talk to someone one on one. im not sure why but it does. havent really had a blog for awhile but i need somewhere to post ( Read more... )

last night i got to write a letter to eric and i wanted to post it here incase i lose the paper i have something for me to think back on. (this is the unedited version i like the edited one so much better ( Read more... )

Don't you hate the feeling when you know people were just talking about you? But you know the talk isnt good....

why yes i am a self centered bitch... how did you know?

as i sit here and cant stop crying i just want to say thank you. thank you for everything you've done, everything you've tought me, every way you've changed me. thank you. the nights of me sitting here alone with no where to turn the feeling over a higher being could be felt. this is something you had taught me about. you taught me how to love god ( Read more... )

i hate being sick

this stress is killing me. it really is. these insane butt loads of homework are pissing me off. instead of putting holes in my wrists i put them in my walls. thank god for knives. i havent been getting enough sleep and ive been working my ass off with all this homework. it really sucks. i hate high school. but my mom thinks that i dont have to ( Read more... )