lets see how long it allows me to type in here. So as I was saying, a dreamer. I would like that part of me back. I have become cynical. I don't know if it is job, my past relationships, the experience I had when I had my son, or all of the above. most likely the last one.
I had one of my kids try to commit suicide today. I am not shocked that I ( Read more... )

i guess its time to stretch my fingers and my mind. i havent written like this in a long while. i have recently come across many social networking sights about being in the line of soical work and have been doing some reading on self care so i thought this might be a way for me to practice self care ( Read more... )

Saw an old friend today who recently gave birth to her baby boy in October. It was so good to see her and her baby interact. She was very loose with him. SHe allowed people to hold him, walk around with him and wasn't nervous at all when he started to cry ( Read more... )

Here I sit with my home quiet, Benjamin sleeping and the soft hum of the dryer finishing my comforter. The comforter we slept under, cuddled under, shared secrets under, laughed under, we made love under ( Read more... )

So Christmas just happened. what a joy. You know when i was younger i used to love christmas. getting together with all of the family. gathering not for present opening but to remininse about the past, to connect with family memebers you have not seen in a while. eating the delisious food prepared by loving hands. drinking with relitives and ( Read more... )

The loveliness of getting a constant paycheck never ceases to amaze me. To know that as long as my work is done and in on time i will still get my paycheck and be able to live independently. its just lovely ( Read more... )

Sometimes it just slaps me in the face. like when you are sitting there and you have a pit in your stomach, and your not too sure why you feel this way but you do. you think to yourself, im not behind on any of my payments, i have a great place to live, i have money in my accounts, i have a family who loves me and everything seems to be in order. ( Read more... )

i wish i hadn't moved so far away from home. i wish my training wasn't in Detroit. I wish i could go and watch my cousin graduate from high school. it is killing me to know that i won't be there. and of course he is the one cousin who has a learning disability and him graduating from high school is a great feat. if i was more near home i would be ( Read more... )

so im in training in detroit. i got sworn in by the Governor. i was on the news. im pretty important. i love the feeling of being a part of something that will be saving children. and that is why i love my job ( Read more... )

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