Mind over matter,
Hand over heart,
Heart over hurt,
For all that I am afraid of feeling
After all that has been,
I cannot help
But want to do it all again,
Just for you.

He was bleeding inside. In the real way that means something inside is physically not right. He has broken ribs and a fractured thigh bone. And he’s been given lots a grapes. A bizarre present to be giving someone with a severe eating disorder. And I cried, and now I’m all cried out. And today, when the sky is so heavy and the world so slow, I ( Read more... )

What with all this crazy summer sun and lack of constructive activities, I got myself a blinding headache last night and felt terrible. Missed work. Slept. Awoke. Cried. Slept. And remembered how the first time I had a migraine after I came to uni, when we were still at Harcourt, Ian held my hair while I was sick and brought me water, and sat with ( Read more... )

I've been thinking (first for everything)... and all I can really say to him this time, for the last time, is... let it lie ( Read more... )

I haven't prayed since I was 16. Just before my last ever french exam, and I knew my parents would kill me if I didn't get a half decent pass, even though I hated the subject and have barely spoken a word of the language since.
Tonight. I wish I had someone to pray to. Just to say, please don't let him die. He's not ready.
Not yet.

He used me as a punch bag, taking out every single bad day and rough ride he had. I was his personal joke. It was me that made him feel better everyday, making me feel worse than he did about himself, just to make himself feel better.I was his excuse to make everything in the world seem ok ( Read more... )

I couldn’t sleep last night. My mind was so full of pointless thoughts. Thinking that I’m scared of loosing the people I love and that I wish I could make everything right for everyone and about how I’m so fed up of being me. I’m so fed up of doubting myself and selling myself out as a second rate runner-up to everything I could be ( Read more... )

So. Summer ( Read more... )

Edit... apathy will be the death if me. If i can be arsed.
Almost set fire to Rens room on Monday. Did last minute revision. Watched finding nemo, full monty and cruel intentions. Smoked. Ate. Tidied. Generally procrastinated for a while… we did get some work done in the end… but not an awful lot. I ran out of enthusiasm and diet coke. Woke early ( Read more... )

Choose a band/artist and answer only in song TITLES by that band ( Read more... )