Fighting To Be Strong

[alwaysangel]

It's hard to explain myself over and over again... everyone can see the sadness behind my eyes... I thought I was hiding it well. It can be so difficult to lean on the Lord- to be satisfied sometimes. So much of me wants to grieve for my loss, but I can't allow myself to cry... I don't think I'd ever be able to stop... and there's no one to hold

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[ex_shadi998]

if u ever need anything im here.
if u ever need anything, dont hesitate to call.
I love you very much and u can always count on me.
they say we show our holiness by our love for one another, so u will always have a friend in me.
-shadi

[alwaysangel]

wish we were closer... but even from far away you force a smile to my face, and a tear to my eye... someday we'll be together forever... that's such a great thing to think about. My love for you is strong also... thank you for being true to me.. and for caring about someone that you don't have to :O)

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[ex_shadi998]

i feel so bad today. I dreamt about her, she told me her new b/f was writing some brilliant script...she acted how she is on the phone. I asked God to break my heart so i would come to him the day before she left, and boy did he ever break my heart, i want it over so bad. I want him to stop now, i feel like ive come to him, why wont the pain cease, i feel like ur old posts, i long for someone anyone, she closed the door on me, she left me, she said she wanted to marry me, she says im crazy, she says i scared her, she doesnt want me anymore, she wants him now, all of my friends dont have time for me, all i have is jesus, thats it, and after im done praying, im with the spirit, but i still long for her, im not asking for advice, i just needed to let this out. yep. blah blah.
-rob.

[alwaysangel]

:O( i'm sorry Rob... for some forms of pain there are no words to do justice... such is the pain of love and love lost... my love is with you strong and true... do with it what you will... I can only pray that it is of profit to you.. that it holds some form of comfort... no matter how small... my heart bleeds with your pain and my own... how I wish I could take your suffering away... I can only pray for you that you would continually turn to the one who has already experience all of your pain in exact form for you... lean on the only one who can understand... wish I could be there to be your crying shoulder