Just wanted to put a short update on since I haven't in over a year and a half. For anyone who still cares that I don't see on a regular basis I did get married April 30, 2005. Five months later Chris and I were shocked to find out that we were already expecting our first baby. Christopher Lee Murphy II (we call him CJ for short since there are ( Read more... )

Hey everyone just wanted to give you Chris and I's wedding website

www.theknot.com/ourwedding/lindseytomaso&chrismurphy

Hey everyone- I hope you all had a great Christmas- I sure did :O) I wanted to tell some of you in person or over the phone, but I figured I'd do this for anyone that I missed. Chris proposed to me on Christmas day and I accepted! Yay! I'm getting married in 121 days... for those of you who don't like adding that's April 30th :O) gotta get ( Read more... )

this journal is in the process of becoming private

It's hard to explain myself over and over again... everyone can see the sadness behind my eyes... I thought I was hiding it well. It can be so difficult to lean on the Lord- to be satisfied sometimes. So much of me wants to grieve for my loss, but I can't allow myself to cry... I don't think I'd ever be able to stop... and there's no one to hold ( Read more... )

One day of camp down... back for senior scheduling... woo hoo... well God is so good and so gracious to me... right now I could very easily be bawling and suicidal... I talked to a girl I roomed with last year that went to Benny's church... without knowing who I am she said something about him being engaged... breaking it off during the time when ( Read more... )

I'm soooo burnt!!!!!!!! 5 hours in the sun.... at least I have some color... but I'm leaving for camp tomorrow... therefore I will only be in the sun more... anyone going to miss me?? Prolly not... that's ok... I'll be w/ ppl that hardly ever get to see me... I'm so excited. I'm so tired... need to take a nap... need to get a bathing suit... ( Read more... )

Talking to her made me realize how much I want Benny... actually living a normal life... having a 'normal' relationship. I love him so much... but I don't know what to do with this love anymore... my heart is bleeding... when I smile... I ache... because it's contrary to how I really feel. I don't know anymore..... I really don't... there's so ( Read more... )

I talked to Jason last night... felt so good to talk to him after all this time... I was wanting to call him anyway, but it was just super-special that he called me :O) out of the blue like that. I can't wait to see him whether it's before or after camp... I really hope we get the chance to have that talk before he heads off to college.. I'm ( Read more... )

Friend of Bryan's has that on his profile ( Read more... )