well..........i'm subbing. i'm in a relationship with someone i love from high school who is mean a lot and i'm debating if i should just get out. i'm kind of miserable right now. when we are good, it ridiculous how much fun we have...........when its bad.....it just doesn't seem worth it. sorry this is a sad post.............but its my post.

I'm starting to wonder if there's something wrong with me. I've always been a fan of sex, but since my last break up with matt.......i've gone into hyperdrive. I walk around dying to just catch a dick. haha, that's something matt would say. but seriously.....i'm like drooling all day wanting to lick someone. Its pretty terrible.... i seriously ( Read more... )

I get all these messages on myspace and they are so weird. two of them today were from guys who said that they don't know the area well and them and their girlfriend/wife would be interested in meeting up with me for drinks or something. Is this a new pick-up line or something? Are they just looking for a third fuck buddy? It was strange b/c ( Read more... )

I never would have guessed that I would miss college and all the people from college this much. Its kind of sad, really. There is nothing like college or at least college in Geneseo.

for anyone who wants to know. I got a tattoo on my back that says "live in love" my ultimate goal. its written in green (script) vines with cherry blossoms around it. I'm also working at Sole' now. Its on main street in williamsville. People tip way better out there and i will never work at a chain restaurant again.....for the rest of my life. ( Read more... )

They always say the same things. If you leave you will never find another guy like me. You'll never find someone who loves you like i do and who will put up with your shit. Then, funnily i find another guy and he ends up saying the same thing. How do you know when it is right? I'm the most selfish person sometimes. I was dragged through shit for ( Read more... )

i'm finally settling into this new apartment. Poor matt has to deal with me and all my aches and pains and feeling shitty. its kind of annoying though.....if i act remotely pissed off he acts like the relationship is over and he should start packing his things. he reminds me of how i used to be with marc. i hung on his every word and i always ( Read more... )

so hopefully i'll have internet for awhile again. Where am i, you ask? Yesterday was my 7 month anniversary with my boyfriend matt. We have pretty much just finished moving into our new apartment in allentown. Thing are going well......but frustrating. I just got to go through all my crap that was packed when i left school and man did it put me ( Read more... )

its not always easy to bring things up to discussion.......and then when things go in one ear and out the other...well that is straight up disappointing ( Read more... )

i stopped sleeping ( Read more... )