I still think about the one that got away. Quite a lot actually. Considering that it was hardly an epic romance but we clicked. And it must have been more than just a fling since now he won't speak to me anymore.

I guess it's hard to think about what might have been. Hmm.

I had my first councilling session on Wednesday, and the rest are going to be on Wednesdays too weekly. It was weird and I found it ironic that her name is Anna. I cried as soon as I walked in, even though before it I felt more hollow than emotional. It was strange speaking to someone I didn't know, and especially since I was so erratic. There's ( Read more... )

I am depressed ( Read more... )

Vicky spends 90% of her life feeling guilty.

I have an alter-ego and her name is Ana.

She comes and goes... She's back at the moment. I've been better, but strangely enough I think I've missed her.

Just want to let anyone out there who cares that I'm really good now. I've not done it now for... weeks and weeks, maybe a couple of months. Still think about it, but I'm in control of it. Lost half a stone the last couple of weeks through dieting and feels soooo much better for it. Gonna carry on :) Going to Amsterdam again Sunday (3rd time in a ( Read more... )

Here's the deal! I am on a diet... and I've decided to document it weekly on here... I think moreso for my own records! Aim is 10st 4... So I need to lose 26lbs to get to it. So if you can't work that out I'm 12st 2, which is the heaviest I've been since 4 years ago when I dropped from 15st to... yes, you guessed it: 10st 4 ( Read more... )

Even now there's something
To be proud about
You come up the hard way
And they'll remind you every day
You're nothing

I got a 2:1 today :) FUCK YEAH!!

[EDIT] Thanks to the two people who commented on my last post, I appreciate it and to let you know I'm doing well :) I'm getting better so thank you for the kind words guys! <3 [/EDIT]

So I told my Mum tonight about my bulimia. She cried :( I feel so guilty, she's got enough on her mind with my brother that I feel bad for creating extra stress. But she's told me stuff about her life I had no idea of, and I felt like I should tell her. I was really scared, because now I know I need to stop ( Read more... )

I don't feel ready for the "real" world.

I don't know what I want to do with my life.