I am slacker when it comes to recognizing myself. I try so hard to not be seen as a self centered person that I tend to loose myself pretty easily in the passing of the every day life. This school year is going to be way rough, emotionally, physically, and scholastically. I have fifteen credits this year, Core Humanities 201 (which is a bitch that ( Read more... )

Growing up is so hard. I am learning this summer that changing into your own person is probably the most strenuous thing, you are faced with the obstacle of figuring out who exactly you want to end up to be but also figuring out who and what can outlast your cycle. I don't really know if I am proud of myself right now, I am trying so hard to ( Read more... )

So today I wrote a song for you ( Read more... )

For the first time in what I feel like two years I am happy with myself. This time it's different and I know I'm going to stay happy, mainly it's because this time I am not happy because I have a new man of the moment but because I have things going for me. I finally stopped talking to Matt all together as a friend, as family, as anything I now ( Read more... )

"I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, Im out of control, and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell dont deserve me at my best."

These past couple of months have soared by. I am initiated into tri delta and it seriously feels like i just signed my bid card yersterday. I would be happy about this fast paced year if it wasn't for the fact that I just cant keep up with it. My grades are terrible, honestly Im going to be surprised if I keep my millinium and im not put in bad ( Read more... )

School started and it was completly different than any other. This time i didnt go shopping for hours looking for what clothes i want to define myself by, ill be wearing nothing, new just clothes and i wont really care. I didnt go get new pens or note books and im not cleaning my room frantically organizing and promising a new sense of organization ( Read more... )

When something horrible happens it is so much easier to cope with when you just say, "everything is fucked its never going to be exactly the same and in some aspects that sucks but i have so many oppurtunities to get a totally new outlook on life and everything else" Im ready for this and i think i have been ready for six months, the only time i ( Read more... )

Is it bad to be upset when an ex gets his first girl friend after you? Seriously it's bothering me I was in an amazing mood and when i found out I just got this big weird feeling in my chest. I shouldn't be upset I ended it, but seriously he started being bitter and ignoring me when I did so I didn't even get a chance to fix things or even fucking ( Read more... )

I'm addicted to emotions lately. Seriously when i feel happy i just surrender to it and get completly into it same goes with every emotion, it's really bitter sweet. I have just been sitting in a land where I think about the past,read old papers, look at pictures, and listen to old music that reminds me of things. On another hand I have been ( Read more... )