one year ago today i when nathan got in his accident, his anniversary of his death is on friday, i really miss him and wanted to visit his grave that day, but it looks like im not gonna have enough money to go back to livonia. i think i'll just have a happy day instead in his memory, i think he'd like that.

these last few days have been some of the worst ive had in my life. two things i thought were constants are gone. i felt so very madly about this boy ben that i met at school and him and i were unofficially dating for like a month and a half. all i did was talk and think about him. then the last few times i talked to him he seemed like he wasnt as ( Read more... )

these last few days have been some of the worst ive had in my life. two things i thought were constants are gone. i felt so very madly about this boy ben that i met at school and him and i were unofficially dating for like a month and a half. all i did was talk and think about him. then the last few times i talked to him he seemed like he wasnt as ( Read more... )

today is the first day ive been completely sober all day in a while. the past month ive probably been sober all of like 8 days. this led me to a drunken epiphany last night that im in a pretty serious depression and staying sober is all that can help me get out of it. not being able to be with the one you want is one of the worst feelings i can ( Read more... )

hey hey! i never use this anymore, but i use these...

-http://twitter.com/sosaysalysen

-http://www.facebook.com/home.php?ref=home#/profile.php?id=652105601&ref=profile-

Oh dear!

I got my wisdom teeth ripped out Saturday morning. They hurt a lot, but the pain meds are oh so nice. I havent had a cigarette in a very long time and Im going a little cuckoo! But it goes to show I can (despite popular belief) live without them, and hopefully sometime in the near future I'll be able to quit, my goal has been that I would before I ( Read more... )

Im starting to get really excited about moving to Grand Rapids. I found out today I got a $10,500 scholarship for my portfolio too so Im pretty happy about that. There is still a bunch of stuff I have to do before school starts though and combined with the holidays approaching and finals, Ive been a mess lately ( Read more... )

5 days til my portfolio review! Im still not even done, sweeeet.

I worked friday and saturday as well as i work today and tomorrow, i hate Krogers, it will be sweet to move to grand rapids and get a new life, including a new job.

I voted today. It was Obamazing.

I was sick for the past two weeks with what started as a sinus infection and then turned into the flu. I got priscribed codine though, so missing halloween wasnt so bad after all.

9 days until my portfolio review. Im still not ready, Im a complete wreck right now.