once again nothing i do ever makes anyone
not even myself happy.

and i think im dropping outta college
AWESOME =/

lately things have went from bad to good
nicole's home for the summer
& that right there makes everything better
the fact that shes not an hour away
and i can see her more then just friday-sunday
and that in august we're getting our apartment
just seems to help when ever he pisses me off
or annoys the shit outta me or is just a pain in the ass

yea you'd ( Read more... )

dear friday night around 6ish,

i am begging you
please come super fast
im having a week from hell
and i really just need my best friend
and about 100 beers =)

love alyssa

basically i kinda suck at making myself happy lately
so thats pretty cool i guess
other than that .. ive been crying a lot
and keeping a lot inside me once again
and its about to burst ( Read more... )

is it normal for one individual
to make you feel 2 completely opposite things
like killing yourself  & smiling?

thank you asshole ;;
for not only stressing the fuck outta me
but also confusing the shit outta me
along with making me second guess myself

life made so much more sence when you were gone
so do us all a favor and crawl back in your ike hole
and ( Read more... )

school is stressing me out
and my family is frustrating
what else is new?

i feel like no matter how hard i try
I'm not gonna pass my classes
and ill never make it to Saginaw
guess i have myself and my dad to thank
I'm not my brother
i just gotta tell myself i can do this
its all i want .. to get away and be myself
with my best friend at my side
i think it ( Read more... )

honestly whats wrong with me?!

one of the best weekends i've had in a really long time ( Read more... )

so 1 more full day until friday
and i couldnt be more excited for the weekend
spending it in saginaw w/the bestie =)

after the past 3 weeks
jam packed with nothing but stress
i need a nice weekend away from home
&& what better way to spend it
then drinkin my problems away
with the only person who understands
why i feel like this =)
LOVEYOUNIGGYim ( Read more... )

i hate that i'm allowing you to control my emotions again
i didnt like being this person 2 years ago
and i definitely don't like it now
i don't know what to do anymore
i've been trying so hard to stay strong
guess its not working as well as i hoped
and i'm not as strong of a person that i thought
this is ridiculous & not normal to feel like this
i'm the ( Read more... )

why is this happening to me?

gotta wake up in about 3 hours
and im not tired

thanks asshole =[

be with me or get outta my life for good

i cant do this anymore
i was doing soo well until BAM

i'm better off with out you
i think=/